Post # 1
I’m super down this week and I can’t seem to pull myself out of it. It started this weekend when my medical-related hair loss started again and I ended up crying in the bottom of the bathtub, counting each hair that fell out. Then I found out that the new Game of Thrones episode has a pretty controversial scene (no spoilers!) which means I won’t be able to watch it, for personal reasons… and that’s what I was looking forward to doing tonight. Then I got big news at work that they’re realigning the whole department and that I am being assigned to a new portfolio… which just so happens to be the one that I can’t stand. The people are good, but the work is absolutely, mind-numbingly boring, and that’s all I’m going to be doing (in comparison to a position now that is challenging).
And just to add to all of this, I’ve been feeling absolutely miserable about myself because, while I’ve been working out with a colleague during lunch breaks for the last few months, I’ve hit a giant weight-loss plateau (like, two months long) and she’s just losing non-stop. I feel so dumpy and gross and totally incapable compared to her, even though we’re both doing the same workout plans. And because of how I feel, I’ve been slumping with working out, because in the bad moments… which there have been a lot of recently… I start to think, why should I if I’m not going to see results?!
Anyway, I can’t figure out how to get myself out of this funk. I texted Fiance on lunch to let him know about the work thing, and he was kind enough to volunteer to stay home tonight to keep me company, but he’s already made plans with a friend he rarely sees and I don’t want to impinge on that. But now I’m just thinking that all I have to do after work today is go home… and sit… and stare at the wall… and think about how crummy life is going right now.
Hive, how do I get myself out of this? What would you do?
Post # 2
I’m right there with you, so hoping for some good pick-me-ups from other Bees. I have Canadian chocolate here at my desk, but I’m too depressed to go downstairs and work out so I’m not allowed to eat any of the chocolate. Really I ought to go down and lift some weights, but I can’t think of anything I want to do less than that right now. Maybe I’ll do some actual work and feel productive? Or we could draw pictures … ?
Post # 3
Chocolate! Lots of chocolate!
Post # 4
- Wedding: November 2014 - 11/15/14-Vineyard
Have an extra long workout while he’s gone. It usually helps after the fact.
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Post # 6
For me I love going home to a hot chocolate, a hot water bottle and a comforting or vapid tv show. I give myself that hour or that two hours off. By off I mean, I go into holiday mode in my mind. I deep breathe and I relax my entire body. I cuddle up into the heat of of the hot water bottle and the soothing warmth of the drink and let my mind just cease for a while. Its like yoga but without any painful stretching. I tell myself ‘this is relax time. in this time nothing bad is happening, nothing bad is going to happen. I am safe, I am comfortable, I am warm and I am loved’ Then I write down a list of things to do. I have a fun list, a domestic list and a ‘goals’ list. These lists keep me focussed and forward moving. When I feel like my life is going nowhere I think about what i would change and why and when i would like to change it by. But at the same time I remember that even if nothing ever changed, I am far more blessed than I am cursed and there is hope and comfort and security in that. But tonight, relax, do your fun thing you do alone. Every one has something. Don’t beat yourself up. Its not productive. You are who you are. You are not your coworker. She has her cross to bear too. All you can do is live within your own skin. There is relief to be found in that. All you have to do is be you. And then distract, amuse and relax.
Post # 7
I grab a glass of wine, get a new ebook for my Kindle, and take a bubble bath. I’ll also go for long walks outside (preferably in the woods, by a lake, etc). I just need to get out somewhere that’s private, doesn’t require social interactions, and allows me to clear my mind.
FutureMrsGeek: Every one has something. Don’t beat yourself up. Its not productive. You are who you are. You are not your coworker. She has her cross to bear too. All you can do is live within your own skin. There is relief to be found in that. All you have to do is be you.
Post # 8
MrsRevolutionize: I’m sorry you’re having a rough time! 🙁
Everyone’s funk escapes are different, but I like to paint my nails, watch Game of Thrones (like you), exercise, do dishes (for some really this really fulfills me….Mostly having the kitchen clean I think), eat some thai food, take a shower, cross a thing or two off my to-do list…it depends.
There was a pretty controversial scene in this week’s episode. I take it you didn’t read the books? If you do you can tell it’s about to happen and fast-forward/mute and look away etc. Or maybe your Fiance would be willing to look ahead and warn you when it’s coming? The rest of the episode was a pretty fun one, it might help perk you up. Good luck!
Post # 9
Thank you everyone for your responses! Chocolate sounds delicious, but I don’t want to ruin my diet anymore :S Sigh.
MsCarabiner: I have read the books, so it’s not the scene as much as how it’s been changed for TV that bothers me. I’m trying not to get specific in case anyone hasn’t seen the episode, haha, but yeah 🙁 I just don’t think I’d be able to stomach it. A nice long shower sounds pretty nice, though! Thank you.
Post # 10
iarebridezilla: What kind of Canadian chocolates? Smarties? kit kats?
MrsRevolutionize: Sorry your in a slump I hate days like that! Today has been pretty bad for me as well I idnt sleep all night and I feel so blah today and work has been nuts! Maybe just a small peice of chocolate might cheer you up? always helps me (as I eat mineggs at my desk right now lol)