- 6 years ago
- Wedding: September 2012
Since this past weekend everything seems to be getting me down, i dont need any particular advice i just find writing helps me vent.
since christmas my father has not spoken to me, he effectivly cut me out of his life, this included my stepmom and three of my sisters not speaking to me. all because i told another relative i was unhappy that he treated my daughter different to how he treats my sisters children. i got pregnant at 20 while still in college and ever since i told my father he has treated me differently, i thought things would get better once my baby was born but he saw her maybe 5 times in the first year of her life and then cut us out just after her first birthday. he spoils his other grandchildren but has not even held my daughter. it hurts me so much that he can hold his dissapointment in me against my child.
my sister finally called me after months of them ignoring my calls and emails, to say she wanted to get this all sorted and get the family back together. so she arranged for my father and stepmom to go to her house and me, fiance and my daughter met them there. one word AWKWARD! he barely spoke to me but my stepmom spent the entire time saying how i got everything wrong and that this whole falling out was pointless. my wedding was not mentioned. the only positive was that my dad was polite to fiance whom he usually ignores. just to point out fiance has never done anything wrong to my family, my dad dislikes him purely because he got me pregnant (while i was on the implant!) and then stood by me and has supported me for the last 2 years while i take care of our daughter.
originally when we booked our wedding we had savings to pay for the nicer things and slightly more expensive items, however my auntie died and my father couldnt cover the costs of the funeral so we gave the majority of our savings to make sure she had a good sendoff, my dad promised to help out with wedding costs on a month to month basis. he hasnt helped with one penny. Fiance has been essentially paying for this wedding (£12,000/$18,800) using his monthly wages, we had to take out a loan to pay the venue otherwise we were going to lose it. we were paid yesterday and our bills went out today and we have no money. i cant believe this! we are going to have to resort to selling things as we have to pay about another £400 this month on wedding things. im just so hurt that my dad has treated me like this and put us in this situation.
sorry for how long that was, i just dont want to feel this down so close to my wedding.