- 6 years ago
- Wedding: April 2014
So the other night, Alex came to pick me up from work. Normally when he picks me up he’ll get out of the car, give me a hug and a kiss and get the car door for me. That day he just opened the door, no hug, no kiss, nothing. I just assumed he was in a bad mood. I knew he had visited a friend of his that sometimes pisses him off, so I thought it might be that.
So when we got in the car, I asked him what was wrong and he just shook his head like he didnt want to talk about it. Then on the drive home, he was driving faster than I’ve ever seen him drive – And he always drives over the speed limit already, so it was pretty freaking fast.
When we got inside, I knew something was really wrong with him, so I went and sat down and dragged him over to me… As soon as he layed his head on my shoulder, he burst out crying. I’ve NEVER seen him cry before. He was crying so hard I thought his mom must have died or something. He cried for about 45 minutes, before he finally calmed down enough to talk.
And…. He told me he met up with a (girl) friend from HS. He knew this girl liked him, but he told her he was engaged, so he thought she’d act normal. Well, for whatever reason they started talking about sex, and I guess got horny. She started rubbing his penis through his pants and he started playing with her boobs. He said that she wanted to go somewhere and have sex, but then he finally realized what he was doing and left her there.
We both cried it out and talked about it. I think he cried harder/more than I did. He seemed completely broken. Even the next day, he randomly kept breaking down and crying.
I told him I forgive him, he’s human and everyone makes mistakes, but that if it happens again, I cant stay with him. He agreed and promised that he wouldnt do anything like that again. Even offered to let me read his texts and messeges on facebook… Which I passed on. I didnt want to seem like I dont trust him.
But now, several days later, its all I can think about. I want to go through his texts, I want to snoop on his FB, I want to look through his pictures on his laptop. I feel like shit about it. I do believe him when he said he wouldnt do it again, I really do. And I know he regrets it, and I know how much he loves me. But I just cant stop thinking about it.