After 8 months of wedding planning, I snapped. I should probably mention I am a full time (actually, a full time plus) student and working part time. 2 weeks ago I started freaking out. I started worrying about the to-do list that never seems to get to-done, the money (which never seems to be enough), and mostly I worried:
HOW CAN I MAKE EVERYONE HAPPY AND NOT GO CRAZY?
I started crying (multiple times a day), hyperventilating, not being able to fall asleep, feeling fatigued, over-reacting to everything, and just feeling overwhelmed in general. My fiancee started worrying I wasn’t happy about getting married, which isn’t the case- I can’t wait to get married and I know I am marrying the right person. But him worrying made me worry even more.
The truth- I’m trying to do too much. I’m not asking anyone for help, which I need to. I’m worrying too much about making everyone else happy when everyone else doesn’t matter. It’s our wedding day, not everyone else’s.
What I’ve done since: Got it all out, cried my heart out, took a day or two off from seeing my fiancee. Called my maid of honor (who lives states away), got some advice on how she dealt with her wedding stress. Talked to my mom, made sure I was doing the right thing (I am) and made a decision to feel whatever I needed to feel and then to let it pass when it was time.
Thank God it was time last week. I started feeling better, remembering how freaking lucky I am to be marrying the man of my dreams with the love and support of my family. I started being more active, eating better, taking my vitamins, and it started to clear itself up. It’s not perfect, I’m still stressed out, but I feel better.
Hope my experience can help a little bit- you’re not the only one who feels like this some times! Best of luck to you.