- 8 years ago
I was engaged in january and i believe it was a rushed premature decision from his side. we had been dating for 2 months but had known each other for 5 years. He was my best friend, my go ot guy and i was not feeling the love connection that i thought i would feel towards a fututre husband. i guess sometimes best friends dont make good husbands. im having a terrible year, i cant go back to college and cant find a job was depressed about this for 6 months. I broke things off with him a week ago to focus on myself before i can focus on us and he never even called or tried to fight for the love, he just said ok and left things hanging…so much for i want you to be my wife. i had a facebook account and deleted it in april, and thats when he became very active in his, i checked him on facebook and found outh that he was with holding inforamtion about his business and finances all along and that he had befriended about 120 girls on facebook between april and june. this is my 2nd failed engagement the 1st failed because he was physically abusive – i have gotten over that.
The good news is, once i let my now fiance go, my depression is gone too. i am no longer sad or confused about my life. I am no longer crying myself to sleep or being helpless or hopeless about my life and future. my mood changed and im happy and still am, i am back to my old self, even jogging.
I plan on using the wedding inspiration i made over the 6 months for my future wedding, when my mr right comes along. you can check it out at: http://pinterest.com/smurflove82/countdown-to-forever/
Atleast i know who mr wrong is or rather what kind of guys are my mr wrong so now i can see mr right coming from a mile away.
I will continue planning my wedding though, this failed engagement wont stop me from getting happily ever after i deserve in loving arms.