- 4 years ago
- Wedding: April 2011
I just wanted to share my story, since when I was seeking comfort in the internet when going through this journey I found little! I got married when I was 31 after dating Darling Husband for 4 years. We decided we were ready to have children immediately, and I went off my BC. We tried for about 9 months with no luck before I went to my OBGYN to get tests done. I got the dreaded call…high FSH. My FSH was 13.1. She immediately referred me to a fertility specialist and scheduled an appointment for a HSG since she knew they would want to see that. I had the HSG (all looked good) and had my first appointment with the fertility specialist about a month later. I live in the Washington DC area and went to Shady Grove Fertility. Dr. Eric Levens was one of the most amazing doctors I have ever had the experience of working with. He was so kind and laid everything out in scientific yet understandable terms. I had more tests and FSH was up to 21 and AMH was 0.02…considered undetectable. This was devastating, I was only 32! I was basically pre-menopausal with premature ovarian failure. He was very candid with me and told me that I had about a 0.01% chance of becoming pregnant with my own eggs, with or without fertility treatments. I wasn’t a candidate for IVF because my FSH was so high, and even if they would do it, my insurance wouldn’t cover it because it was so high. At this point, it was September timeframe, and Darling Husband and I had lots of plans for the Fall, so we decided to take a break from fertility stress, enjoy the fall and the holiday season, and pick it up again after New Years. Well, on New Years Day I got my BFP. Holy cr*p!!! What a surprise! 1.5 years after starting this journey and thinking I may never have a biological child, I was pregnant! I had a very healthy pregnancy and had my miracle baby who is now 20 months and thriving.
We knew we wanted another child even if the chances were very slim, and knowing that time was not on my side, I made the decision to stop breastfeeding at 5 months. It wasn’t going well anyway, I had a low supply (probably because my hormones were out of whack) so had been supplementing since about 2 weeks. I immediately got pregnant again, but had a miscarriage. While upsetting, it gave me hope since it meant that things were still working down there! Fast forward 9 months and still nothing. Hubs and I came to terms with the fact that we may only have one child, and we were so blessed to have him that not having another was ok so not to stress. When I went in for my annual exam, my doctor encouraged me not to give up and offered to try a few months of Clomid. Since I just had a healthy baby, he was confident that despite my terrible numbers (I did bloodwork again and FSH was measured at 22.5), I could conceive again. So I tried 2 months of Clomid and nothing. I had 3 months of the prescription, but was traveling for work around the time that I would be ovulating, so opted to hold off for that month. Well low and behold, that was the month that I got pregnant again! I’m now 12 weeks with #2 and praying that this is my rainbow baby.
I’m just sharing this to give some people hope that numbers aren’t everything! There is a chance even with the worst news! Best of luck with your journeys.