- 2 weeks ago
my husband and I have been together for 3 years in March it’ll be two years married. He’s all but adopted my son and is a very good person. For the last two years however I’ve been tripping HARD because he linked our emails together and when I looked in his spam folder there were links to hook up sites. My heart dropped so I clicked on a couple of them and there was a profile on there but nothing that matched my husband’s physical appearance, location birthday nothing. It was almost like a generic profile. No pictures and no sent messages with any woman. I asked him about it and he said it’s spam and that he doesn’t go on those sites. He reminded me of when I accidentally got rid of 3 of his laptops and they all had his information email etc on there. He also told me that if I click on those sites it’s an invitation to hackers and scammers and they could’ve created a fake profile in the hopes of gaining credit card or some other information. I’ve been obsessing for two years about this at some point hospitalized because I was thinking he was hooking up with you random women any chance he got. He’s maintained his innocence and said that he’d never do that to me and my son and that he would leave me before he cheated. I’m seeing a therapist twice a week because I can’t get the thoughts out of my head. I have severe PTSD and trauma from my childhood. He’s been very supportive even in my angry fits and accusing him all the time. I accuse him of everything. He went to one of my therapy sessions with me and told my therapist he never has done the things I’ve accused him of. He emailed her and said anything he can do he just wants to see me get better where he was almost to the point of tears. I want to trust my husband and move on with our lives. I also have really bad OCD and have been taking medicine and so far it seems to be making the thoughts less loud.