- 5 years ago
I had such a horrible waiting day which in part is because i had a mental breakdown today. My significant other and I are currently living with his mother and recently her boyfriend and son moved in with us. It has been so chaotic in this house and we never have any privacy anymore. I am extremely grateful that she is letting us stay here while we both finish graduate school but it is so stressful especially because neither of us have the money to be living on our own right now. I was in a bad mood all day because we have not gotten one minute alone this whole week and the pets in the house were going crazy and it was driving me crazy.
Then on top of that a couple we are friends with got engaged today after going out for just a year (we have been going out for two). I freaked out and started hysterically crying. Ridiculous I know. It was just my breaking point and I was just so upset that so many couples around us are living on their own and getting engaged and our lives seem to be on hold while we finish our degrees. I know in the long run it will be worth it and my SO was reassuring me we will get engaged one day when we are financially stable and closer to be done with school (we will be done in a year and a half). I know we are working to have a better future and we just have to deal with it for now but it still was just an incredibly hard day for me. It is hard to see girls younger than me and around my age getting all the things I want and I have just have to wait to have that one day.
Sorry for the long vent fellow bees. I just needed to let it out.