- 9 years ago
Is anyone else starting to feel like love and marriage are unattainable for you? Anyone been through a lot of heartbreak (as in many failed relationships, not 21 year olds who are marrying their 2nd love) to eventually find someone better than all the others were?
I’m sorry, I am feeling incredibly jaded right now. I am 27, will be 28 in a few months and it looks like another relationship that was supposed to end up in marriage is going to fail and I don’t know if I can handle it or how I will have enough hope to move forward. This is the 2nd serious relationship I have been in that was seriously headed toward marriage in the very near future, I don’t mean like we just thought we’d get married someday but it wasn’t seriously going to happen anytime soon, I’ve had 2 of those also when I was younger. Marriage has always been very important to me and I can’t imagine my life without a life partner to love me forever by my side. At this point, I’m going to be afraid to let myself fall in love again.
I really need some words of encouragement from people who have been there and who have found the complete and total love of their life at a later age after having gone through so much heartache. Or from people who feel the same as me. What I really do not need is people telling me I’m still really young because I thought I would be married by the time I was 25 when I thought about my life as a little girl. Then I came to terms with it and knew I would be fine if I got married by the time I was 30. Now that is looking basically impossible. Let me also add that it is very important to me to be married for a few years before having kids in order to build a good relationship with my husband, and I’m already afraid I will have fertility problems because of multiple female problems I have had.
I just feel lost and hopeless right now.