- 3 months ago
- Wedding: January 2019
Obviously not wedding related, but what are some of the things you do to get out of a funk? Or motivate yourself to focus on your health?
for background, I got married 2 months ago and honestly I have zero complaints about my personal life. We are in a good place, building a house, life is cruising along smoothly, and we just got back from a delayed honeymoon.
Professionally, it’s been a different story. I’m a teacher, specifically band. My first year at my current school (4th year teaching) was awful, the kids HATED me in comparison to the previous director, something I had never dealt with. This year has been a lot better, but ultimately I know this school culture is not my “forever” school. I’m waiting for a specific job to open in the next 3-4 years.
I’m struggling. I don’t enjoy much of my job, I love the kids but the overall community and school culture isn’t me. I struggle to get up on time in the morning and I feel like I have to pep talk myself. The days I don’t have something after school, I come home and nap. Even though I leave school motivated to work out, on the 15 minute drive home I lose all motivation and end up napping and being lazy.
I used to be an excellent athlete and I’m struggling to work back to any level of athleticism. Fortunately tennis season is starting, and I play in an adult competitive league, and that gives me structured workout time I need to show up to and I genuinely enjoy it. I’m the last few years I’ve struggled with my weight, and since the wedding I’ve gaine 13 pounds and it’s the heaviest I’ve ever been and I HATE how I look and feel right now.
I want to make healthy habits, I do eat well though I do enjoy alcoholic beverages probably more than I should for my waist line, I grew up in a family where alcohol was always part of dinner and I carried that into my adult life. I plan my lunches and breakfasts to be healthy and such.
I’m struggling with how to snap myself out of the rut I’ve been in for 1-2 years now. I need to stay at this job for one more year to earn my non-probationary status that can transfer to future jobs, so leaving is not an option. I just feel uninspired, lazy, and unmotivated. I don’t want to get things done at work, I burn out easily and I don’t want to take care of myself after work.
Has anyone been through a similar situation? How did you get out of it? Summer break is in 9 weeks, but I’d like to find something that gets me through the worst parts of the year still. I tell myself “today will be the day I do ____” and then I just don’t. My husband is supportive of my goals, but it’s his coaching season and he just isn’t home enough to help motivate me/go to the gym with me.
I do realize that this sounds similar to depression symptoms, but in my personal life I absolutely am happy and fulfilled. So I guess I’m confused, can work isolated depression be a thing? I feel better after a workout… but I can’t get myself to go do it.