- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 2018
I hope all of you bees can forgive me from posting on here so often lately, and mostly about the same thing. I feel a bit like a kid before Christmas here as I’ve been waiting for my BF to propose (it should really be any day now, as I’m 99% sure he plans to do it before the end of the year), and my vents on here help to keep me from going nuts!
One thing I’ve started to really notice is that NOBODY in my family will talk to me about the whole thing. Usually my Mom and sisters are the people I talk to about everything. We’ve all just grown up to be pretty close. But any time I try to bring up the whole pending engagement thing, you’d think I’d just told a dirty, awful joke. They get a bit of a deer-in-the-headlights look for a few seconds and then just try really hard to change the subject, as if I just started trying to discuss the benefits of eating poop. I can’t quite tell if it’s because it’s somehow in really bad taste for me to bring it up or because they’re in on it somehow and don’t want to let anything slip. Or maybe a bit of both? I thought it was all in my head for a little while, but when I was home this past weekend, it was completely obvious, and I’m starting to find it supremely frustrating. It’s to the point that I even brought it up to my BF on the six-hour drive back to our apartment from our hometown last night. He seemed a little confused about what I need to talk to anyone about, and I guess he has a point… I don’t really have any specific issue I’m trying to bring up, I’m just excited! I just wanna speculate a little bit about when he might do it and dumb stuff like that, I don’t freakin’ know. lol But all of this being hush-hush about it is about to drive be bonkers. Am I just nuts? I could try to bring it up to a couple of my friends, but the one who would most likely be interested in the subject is having some relationship problems, so I don’t wanna be all, “Aww, that really sucks that you might have to break up with your boyfriend, let’s talk about how my boyfriend might propose!” I feel like that would just be a dick move.
And just for the sake of telling random (but wonderful!) internet strangers things that I apparently can’t tell anyone else, on said six-hour drive home last night, the BF was gabbing a bit about his super-secret plan, and it was really cute. He was talking a bit about how it’s a “shoe-string operation,” for which he has a plan A, B, C, and then a backup plan. And he keeps saying that I will have no idea what hit me (he really thinks he’s got a good surprise cooked up). And he would have asked sooner, but since I knew about when he got the ring, he knew I’d be expecting it. And he would wait longer for that very reason, but he thinks I’d kill him if he did. (He said this jokingly, we don’t really worry about each others’ murderous tendencies). And I thought it was supremely adorable when he said that he’s been having an awful time not telling me about it, because he’s excited too and we usually tell each other everything.
Anyway, I’m just curious, did any of you experience something similar? Or did you have plenty of people to talk to about this kind of thing? I just want to know if I’m being a terrible person for trying to bring it up, or if my family really is being weird.