- 1 year ago
- Wedding: October 2018
So I’m currently finishing out my last month of employment at a job with an environment I am really excited to get away from. I am taking a bit of a pay cut, but will be going from 60 hour weeks down to 40 and 11 hour days down to 8. Aside from schedule, I also feel very burned out at my current place of work. The day-to-day hasn’t changed much however some corporate policies and procedures have created a more stressful environment between upper management and the staff which I believe is weighing on me as well. I’ve just sort of lost my desire to move forward/up with this company and lost respect for some of my superiors.
All this being said, I BELIEVE my home life has been greatly affected by this. I have definitely lost motivation in taking care of the house and myself. My husband helps a lot however which is great- but I know that I used to care a lot more about what I wore/how I presented myself/my health, now I just kind of feel like I’m surviving day to day. I feel exhausted a lot of the time, feel like I don’t have time to properly recover between work and enjoy my life. I spend most of my time at home in bed or on the couch and then feeling guilty that I’m not doing more. When I do attempt I just feel so overwhelmed and stressed like any small task is monumental.
Im very excited for my new job/schedule. I enjoy making plans for my future free evenings and I am excited to have time for my old hobbies. What SCARES ME so much though is what if this is deeper than just my job? What if I start this new job and yet feel the same? Can a toxic job really take this much out of you? I know people who work way harder and hate their jobs and aren’t half as miserable as I feel. I didn’t used to feel this way- not until I started this job. I’ve been to doctors and have had hormones/thyroid/etc checked and am on medication. I have not gone the psychology route as I’m hoping and praying that a change in my career will help. What’s really frightening me the most is on the off chance I do get a rare break, for instance if I get called off one weekend- I get so excited and make all these plans for it and then when it comes I just feel so bitter/exhausted that it’s going to be over soon I end up wasting it.
Is job burn out real? Any bees have some success stories with this?