- 8 years ago
I think my fiance and I have a great relationship. I would do anything for him and vice versa. I can honestly say he is my best friend without trying to make my relationship sound valid. When he proposed, he drove 2 hours to have lunch with my father and ask him, man to man. He takes an interest in anything I do,… he is constantly helping with the wedding.
Unfortunately it hasn’t always been this great. When we first started dating he was very mysterious… late nights, ignore my calls, girls numbers, pictures, etc. etc. Of course, he had a fantastic excuse for every single thing previously mentioned.. now… I am not stupid, I know when he is lying to me..and I knew on numerous occasions he was lying. I don’t need any girl to come out and tell me – HEY I SLEPT WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND… I just knew. At the time, I chose to forgive him, or believe him ( in his mind)…. about a year ago he stopped. I found a series of pictures in his e-mail…. ( i didnt trust him and went through all of his stuff)… I left him and he begged me to stay. From them on he stopped going out with his single group of friends, he stopped going out til 3 am, he wanted me with him all o the time, he wanted to put our phone plans together for a better deal, he wanted to move into my house with me, he just.. put more of an effort into our relationship…. and it was obvious all the way around… it’s almost like.. he just grew up…. and i kind of feel like that is where our relationship began. It was also bad for him because I didnt trust him AT ALL. I looked through every ounce of his phone calls, his car, his emails, his facebook…. i am the world’s BEST stalker.
Before he changed so much, I would have never married him — in fact, in the back of my head, I thought – what the hell are you doing with this guy? and now I can’t imagine anyone more perfect for me.. he is my dream man… and I can now honestly say that I trust him to do anythign with anybody…I dont check any of his stuff basically because I know he is with me and only me.
MY problem is forgetting about how he used to be..forgetting about him cheating…forgetting about all of the tears I cried for him. I can still see the text messages in his phone like it was yeseterday… I can still see the girl’s pictures in his phone…. It just doesnt seem to fade.
Will this ever fade? Will I ever forget? I want to so bad…..
I know most girls are going to say, you should have left him! but I didn’t and I don’t regret staying with him…. i just want to be able to see our relationship how it is now, instead of thinking about the past…. can anyone relate here?