- 5 years ago
I know this section in Waiting pertains to “waiting for a proposal”.. I am not even really waiting for that. I know its coming, and I know it’ll happen soon, like on my trip to montreal. 52 days until my trip to montreal. I don’t care too much about the proposal or the ring, I was weirdly obsessive about it when it was being designed because I felt like I could control things better. I hate not having control over my life.
I am waiting, 52 days to go, to finally see my boyfriend again. We have been apart since May. This is the second time we have been long-distance since I “moved in” with him. I am Canadian, he is American. I have to be in canada when I don’t have my visa. I’m working on the visa. 54 days until my interview, if they give me my visa, I can marry him (courthouse marriage) so I can finally be with him. I don’t say we are engaged because although he has proposed marriage in conversation, he didnt get down on one knee with a ring, which he wants to do. He wants to have a wedding too, and we can plan one and have one after I am in the states with him (after I legally marry him), we cant plan a wedding now since the timings of the visa were all up in the air and I didn’t want to plan it until I had a ring even. So this was the best step.
I just want to go back to him, live in that house again, see our cat, his family. I want to go home and its 54 days until the interview, and 70 or so days until I get to go back if I get that visa. How do I make time go faster in my head? I’ve already been here 4 months, I need to be here another 3… I’ve been away from him 8 months before when I was waiting on some legal documents before we filed for the visa.
I know he’ll probably propose on the trip and that would be very exciting and amazing, I just want to see him though, I want to be in his arms again and now that I know its 52 days… every day seems to drag on longer. What do I do?