- 7 years ago
- Wedding: October 2015
Hey all. I wasn’t sure whether to post this in Fitness or Wellness but oh well.
So here’s the story. I am an extremely picky person. But I am also overweight.
As of now, I don’t eat vegetables. I only like a few fruits such as apples, bananas and grapes.
My usual diet consists of junk food. As my SO puts it, I literally eat like a child. Chicken tenders, fries, pizza, Hamburger Helper, spaghetti, etc. Until I started college though, this wasn’t a huge problem. I used to be able to eat anything and remain skinny. My metabolism made up for me being picky, I guess. But once I started college at 18, my metabolism and activity slowed way down. I started gaining weight. At 18, I weighed 130 pounds. I now weigh 295 pounds and I’m 26 years old.
I hate being picky. It really affects my social life. But I’ve always been picky. Growing up, my parents would try to make me try new stuff but I was so stubborn that they eventually gave up.
My brother ate the same way I did until college. He met some friends that introduced him to new foods and now he is not picky at all. He’ll eat anything. And he eats healthy stuff now. Before college, my brother was overweight. But once he started eating better and exercising, he became skinny and fit.
I’ve asked him how he does it and he just says stuff like “I just forced myself to try new food. And I started liking it. You just have to force yourself.”
And I know he’s right. With the help of my SO, I’ve started trying new things. I am slowly making progress.
But it is just so difficult. When I see something new and if it doesn’t look appealing, I don’t want to try it. I get anxious about trying a bite of it. It’s ridiculous.
It’s like a mental block. Like if something doesn’t look good, my brain thinks it won’t taste good.
And I wish I could get over this! As I’ve gotten older, this picky habit of mine has made social gatherings awkward. Like whenever friends invite me over for a dinner party at their house or if SO’s parents invite us over to eat dinner at their house, I just get so anxious and dread going over there. I’m just afraid I won’t like the food they cook. And it really gives me anxiety to even think of trying what they cook.
I compare it to being on Fear Factor. To make a good impression, I have to try their food. But I really, really don’t want to. But I don’t want to be rude so I force myself to try it and pretend to like it.
Sigh. I’m just tired of this flaw of mine. How can I get myself to the point where I’m not afraid to try new foods?
I just joined Weight Watchers online and most of the recipes make me nervous. But I really want to lose weight so I’m trying.
So I need advice. Does anyone have any advice for me other than “just force yourself”? Like maybe a new way of thinking about food where I won’t be nervous to try new stuff?