- 4 years ago
- Wedding: September 2011
So, my husband and I had the baby talk again and decided to try (again). We were going to try earlier this year, but I panicked and started taking my birth control again. It worked out because he ended up getting injured at work and was off work all summer. It wouldn’t have been the best decision financially to have the baby during this time. However, it seems like lately everyone is either having a baby or pregnant. I am sooo jealous. Every TV show gives me baby fever, every child I pass, and my nieces really bring it out in me. Not to mention it is hunting season which means I spend a lot of time alone. I can’t help but think about what it would be like to just bond with my child all weekend instead of watching endless hours of TV or begging others to go shopping. I talked with my husband last night, and he agreed to try again. The weird thing is, once he said yes I started to panic again. The idea of such a life changing event scares the crap out of me. I don’t want our relationship to go downhill or for him to feel left out. Our relatives aren’t the prime examples to look at for happy relationships. I have read so many posts on here that there will always be another vacation to take, more bills to pay, a new car you want, etc. I want to experience pregnancy and motherhood, but I’m just scared- of everything!