- 4 years ago
- Wedding: September 2016
It might be PMS (Lord help us all) but I am feeling so resentful towards my mom today. My mother is my best friend, I love her to death and trust her 100%, but I am thinking of how she has been behaving for past year and it’s pissing me off.
My Fiance bough my e-ring in April last year but didn’t propose till September last year. My mom made this “waiting” time for me absolutely miserable and made me cry and doubt my Fiance many times. She even caused fights between us because she would rally me up against him few times. Not that she doesn’t like my Fiance because both of my parents love him but there was several of the “he is stringing you along”, “aren’t you embarrassed to wait that long?”, “don’t you know your worth?” type of comments. She even stirred up a huge fight in August because he didn’t propose yet and when I tried to tell her that he has a ring already and to calm the fuck down, she would just go off and off. Every time I would see her, there was those eye rolls, and *sigh*, and disapproval head shakes. I never enjoyed my waiting time because of her and when he finally did propose, it didn’t feel like “OMG mom, guess what happened???”. It was literally “There, happy now?” moment.
Then we planned a wedding and decided we can’t afford it just now. So we decided to do justice of peace type of a wedding for now and get married two years from now. My God, was there bitching, unhappinnes, fake ass support, and lots of manipulation. Before I even realized what is really happening we have venue booked for 70 people, Catholic church booked, and ballgown wedding dress purchased (I wanted short one for justice of peace wedding). Not that I am not happy with what is happening because I really am. I LOVE our venue and church and my dress and I am so happy to have a wedding that I wanted BUT I am feeling salty today that my mom basically manipulated me into doing this.
Why am I not happy with the way it turned out? Because I don’t have money to do all the things I wanted. I had to compromise on things which is ok because its not the ones that truly matter but still.
Now I chose a dress for her to wear but she doesn’t like it and is complaining. I truly don’t understand what happened to my loving supportive mother. And before you say – you are such a sucker – I know! I always was the type of a person to make others happy before me and generally “too nice”. I swear my mother used it on purpose. I tried to delicately point it out but she brushed it off with “I know what you really wanted and I just want you to be happy”.
I am also a complaining, whiny, miserable, bratty bitch today thanks to mother nature so maybe it is just me taking this all out of context because I always imagined this stress free wedding planning fairytale that you see on TV.
I just don’t wanna feel resentful towards my mom because for past 26 years she has been my rock and number one supporter and fan so I don’t understand what the hell is her problem now and why is she the way she is.