- 4 years ago
- Wedding: August 2013
Let me start off by saying that my wedding is now 11 days away and I am very excited but as many of you know it is a stressful time. I’ll leave it at that.
What REALLY has me stressed out is the fact that I don’t have a job right now. I graduated college in April with a teaching degree and have been trying to get a job since then. I have gone on three interviews, all for amazing positions, and been rejected each time. I am applying anywhere and everywhere, trust me. I knew that it would be tough finding a teaching job in Michigan, but everyone assured me, “oh your major is Spanish, that’s in high demand,” and “oh, you have a 3.9! You are a hardworker you’ll get something!” and “you have a degree from Eastern, you studied abroad, that looks good on a resume!” and so much more. Sad that I believed it. I also have an advisor who is a pretty big official state-wide, and she has been fighting for me but to no avail. I get excellent grades, I have worked my ass off the past six years as a fulltime student, I have been eating crow so I can focus on school, althought still working at least part time, and there just isn’t a payoff it seems like. Every single one of my colleagues has gotten a job except for one. I just don’t understand what’s wrong with me. I am smart, hardworking, caring, and good-looking. I don’t get it.
Also, I have gotten nothing but positive feedback from interviewers. One called me on Friday and said that they were blown away with my interview, super impressed, I am highly regarded, that they especially loved my lesson plans and curriculum design, and that they didn’t hire me because I don’t have experience yet and they just wanted to let me know that. Why not give me the chance to gain experience if you love me so much? Again, 3 districts interviewed me, loved me, but sorry no job for me. Why doesn’t anyone want me? I feel like something is inherently wrong with me.
It’s kind of hard to be excited about the wedding and moving to a new apartment when we are SO stressed about money right now and I am having self-esteem issues from so much rejection. Make me feel better bees. Make me feel like I’m not a worthless human being that no one wants 🙁