- 5 years ago
- Wedding: March 2013
I’ve for less than 64 days till my wedding and I’m feeling moodier than ever. I’ve felt like nothing has ever gone right, I’ve had more disasters than success, and more drama with family than I cared to have brought about as a result from the wedding. My fiance didn’t want a big wedding, we ended up having one, and he didn’t want groomsmen/bridesmaids, we ended up having one. He’s said all my ideas are stupid for the wedding and that I’m turning it into a circus and all he wants to do is say I do, cut cake, and hang out with his guests. I asked if we could write our own vows and do a lock box with wine and letters instead of unity sand. He said both ideas were stupid and that he wasn’t trying to have a 45 min service. He told his friends he was getting drunk at the reception. He started a new job and said that bc of that, we couldn’t take a honeymoon for a year and doesn’t know his work schedule but told his boss he was getting married and to keep that in mind when she makes the schedule. I tried mapping out his projected schedule based on what he has been working and that showed that he’d be off for the wedding and the next day, but then back to work. Anytime I mention asking about what we’re going to do for that weekend he snaps and says he doesn’t know his schedule. Then his friends asked if he was off the weekend b4 the wedding bc they were thinking of throwing him a bachelor party. He said he didn’t know his schedule but he’d make it work. I looked at my projected schedule and it shows he’s off that whole weekend and his friends suggested a place out of state. Last piece to the puzzle is that I haven’t had a period in 2 months (I have an IUD) and I tried on my dress and it felt a little tight. I took a preggo test and it said negative, but I still feel hormonal. I just feel a lack of emotional intimacy and wedding planning has been hard. I don’t even feel like it’s a big deal anymore. Between non stop wedding drama and thinking my fiancé hasn’t got anything planned for us afterwards, but he does his boys, I don’t know how to feel Or how to express it bc he doesn’t understand.