- 6 years ago
- Wedding: December 2010
I want to start by prefacing that I absolutely adore my husband. He is my best friend, and I love everything about him, quirks and all.
Darling Husband keeps talking about “when we have a family” and everytimebe mentions it I feel anxious and unsettled. I am 22 and he is 26 and he doesn’t want a family for a few years yet- but I still worry.
My Darling Husband is very unique. He is extremely smart and motivated and has a very successful career in finance which although pays well keeps him in the office for long hours. He is also OBSESSED with the gym. He enters bodybuilding competitions and spends roughly 2 hours a day in the gym. On weekends he will train twice a day sometimes and goes to different gyms around our city with different training partners. He can also be a little rigiheh and inflexible. He has reactive hypoglycemia, and cannot eat certain foods and needs to maintain his blood sugar, if it gets to low he can get quite sick (but usually just gets really grumpy and irritated).
We have been together since I was 14, I know what he is like and I accept him. I’m actually very happy in our marriage as we are both independent and appreciate our alone time. But this isn’t the kind of relationship I’d want to bring a child into. During the week we don’t eat dinner together because he eats his meals throughout the day and has a protein shake for dinner. He is also at the gym when I eat dinner. When I was younger every night my parents would eat around the table with me, talking about our day. That is one example.. I guess I just feel like I would be doing most of the child raising myself.
I am starting law school next year whigh Darling Husband supports 100% and he knows there won’t be any children for at least five years, but he really wants them. I keep telling him to actually think about what it is like having a child, it’s no longer all about him. He will have to change his lifestyle, no more spending all his spare time in the gym or in his study locked away from the world.. He says “I know” but I really wonder if he understands who greatly our lives will have to changed.
Part of me thinks that if we have a baby he will grow up and dedicate himself to our family, but part of me worries he won’t.. Where will that leave me and our baby?
(sorry about the spelling, on my iPhone!)