- 6 years ago
- Wedding: May 2013
I really don’t feel like a bride. I’m pretty sure I’m not getting a shower or bachelorette party since neither of my MOHs have mentioned it. I’m not going to go around asking for a party either. I also screwed up by having a small wedding and everybody is from out of state. There’s not really a way to have a shower with so few people anyways. But I kind of wanted something leading up to the wedding, anything, you know? Even a “rehearsal lunch” at a burger joint but nobody wants to even entertain that idea.
I’m also let down in the fact that both of my MOHs seem to be too busy for me. When they do have free time, the last thing the want to talk about or help with is the wedding. I know that nobody will be as excited about our wedding as FH and I… but still. I feel like I’m not even getting married. I think their lack of interest is making me resent them a little. I was the Maid/Matron of Honor for my Matron of Honor and feel like I went above and beyond for her so that makes it hurt even more. And the other one, all she wants to talk about are her problems and her job. I’m trying to be a good friend to them, but its getting hard. I thought they would care a little more as the wedding got closer, but nope.
My own mother isn’t excited about the wedding. She is still upset that we aren’t getting married in my hometown even though we are paying for way more than she is. She wanted to pick the venue, the photographer, etc. There was no way I could have planned a wedding 500 miles away from the venue (without going insane!) When I mention the wedding, she acts like it’s an inconvenience.
And a honeymoon, not having one as of now. I really wanted to go on a road trip to Colorado, but FH doesn’t think its too important. We have the money to pay for it and I’ve never seen the mountains. I told him I would go anywhere that isn’t Texas and he said he would think about it since we are so busy.
FH has been incredibly supportive with everything else though and is trying so hard to make this perfect…but I’m still a little sad. 🙁
Anybody else ever feel this way? What did you do? Any advice?