- 8 years ago
- Wedding: March 2010
So maybe I’m being a bitch but this has really been bothering me lately and I would like some opinions. I’m 21 and I was born into a partly Italian family. This means that my dad’s side of the family is huge and everyone is very close. Not long after I was born my parents moved several hours away from his extended famly but throughout my childhood we tried to visit my family frequently and I was bestest friends with my cousin who just turned 18.
We have had our difference as we are quite at different stages in our lives but I figured we would always be close–especially when in Nov. 2008 she got in a fight with her dad and was basically kicked out, eventually moving in with my family and sharing a bedroom with me. We would spend our nights giggling and pretty much being sisters. In Dec 2008 I suddenly moved out. My parents and I were not always on good terms and my mom went snooping through my stuff and found out that me and my Fiance were sleeping together. She lost her cool and I told her I was moving out. There was a lot of other things that had caused this reaction but basically it was a bad situation. My cousin could see how toxic things were with my family and how crazy my mom could be sometimes (sorry if that’s harsh).
Anyways in July 2009 I got invited on family vacation and my parents indicated it would be one of the last ones we did as a family that they paid for. They even invited my cousin. I feel bad now because I did act like a brat most of the time but even my cousin could admit my mom was doing some pretty silly stuff on vacation. We had a talk one night about her moving back with her family and before school really started back up in the fall she went back home.
Ever since this happened I feel like she’s been on and off with me. She’ll come into town and not let me know that she is (but she’ll be here every other weekend to see her BF) She has rarely responded to my texts or messages or chats, nothing. And to make matters worse about a month ago she moved back to my hometown into her Boyfriend or Best Friend sisters house. She’ll be going to college here in the fall. Has she spoken to me, no. But she can post old pictures of me on Facebook and basically live in the past. She can tell me how she doesn’t agree with my life and snub me out. I’ve tried ignoring her hoping that maybe she’ll see how much she misses me and come back. But I’m beginning to feel very resentful. I know she’s being childish but I can’t help but feel walked on when I know she’s hanging out with one of my Bridesmaid or Best Man all the time….and not me. I miss her and I’m not really sure where to go with all this.
I’m so so sorry this is all long winded.