notsosoontobe : The situation you’re in sounds like a hard place to be. It’s always hard to be in a relationship where you want to move forward, but your partner isn’t on the same page. In addition to that, your pregnancy may be making you emotional as well. I’m not trying to blame you or anything, just give some recognition to the fact that you may be more emotional than usual due to circumstances not in your control.
It’s important to recognize, though that you still have a lot of possibilities ahead of you.
It seems like there are some redeeming qualities in your boyfriend, or you would have broken up with him already. Talk to him about marriage and see what he says. His response might surprise you. (Maybe this thread about the benefits of marriage could help you in the discussion: https://boards.weddingbee.com/topic/benefits-of-marriage-2/ )
Having a baby also does not preclude you from getting married or having a honeymoon. Plenty of people get pregnant, get married, and go on a honeymoon. Or have a baby, get married, go on honeymoon. It’s not the order that you wanted, but you can still have everything you want if your boyfriend is on board.
It also seems good that he’s excited about being a dad. Even if things turn out the worst they could possibly be, ex. you guys break up and have to co-parent, you should be able to do it successfully. Lots of people do. Lots of single moms find love and marriage after a failed relationship. It’s not all doom and gloom.
I also saw that you said that due to your endometriosis, you will keep the baby. It’s great that you have made the decision that is best for you. Not that it matters (since everyone is different), but as someone diagnosed with endo and PCOS, I know how difficult infertility is and I completely understand what you are saying. I am assuming that you want to be a mom due to this.
What I want to add to this, though, is that getting pregnant is never guaranteed. I know that this situation isn’t how you wanted things to happen. However, if you left your boyfriend and found someone else to be with, it’s not guaranteed that you would ever get pregnant again. You have said this is part of your decision-making process, but I’m repeating it to reframe your thoughts. It’s not an ideal situation, but if you want to be a mom, it’s better that it happen now than never. See this as an opportunity to have a child and be a mom, which is what it is.
Being a mom won’t prevent you from getting married or finding a new partner.
I do want to note that I’m pro-choice and I don’t believe in the “things work out the way they are supposed to” stuff, so I don’t have either of those things as motives in my perspective. My perspective is purely from my logic and also my own experience.