I feel guilty for feeling disappointed…

posted 1 year ago in Waiting
Post # 2
7667 posts
Bumble Beekeeper

I think it’s great that you told him how you felt bee – it’s never good to bottle these things inside, especially on matters that concern your future. And I don’t blame you AT ALL for wanting a proposal before you uproot your life and follow him across the country. I was in the exact same boat – 30 yrs old, bf got a job halfway across the country and wanted me to move with him. I told him that I’d love to go with him, but wasn’t comfortable uprooting my entire life without being engaged. He understood where I was coming from and ended up proposing a few months before the move, and we’ve now been happily married for 1.5 yrs. 

Anyway, I was a bit skeptical throughout your post until I got to the part where you talked to him about your feelings and he said he will propose before the move, “very soon.” At this point, I think you need to just trust him (unless you have some reason to think he’s full of shit) and try not to get worked up about each specific date you go on that doesn’t turn out to be the proposal. In terms of the big picture – getting engaged before the move – you two appear to be on the same page, so that should give you peace of mind.

That being said, to me “very soon” would mean within a couple weeks max, especially since your move is coming up quickly in just about three months if I understood correctly. So yeah if another month passees with no progress I’d definitely be checking in with him. I would not be making concrete logistical plans to move until the engagement happened.

Post # 4
3508 posts
Sugar bee
  • Wedding: January 2021

It sounds to me like you two have healthy communication going on.

You were honest with him about what was bugging you, but you made it about your feelings, not about any failing on his part. And instead of getting defensive he acknowledged those feelings and tried to comfort you with assurances that marriage is on the table. 

There is absolutely nothing wrong with feeling the way you do/did, and you don’t have to feel guilty about it. Neither of you did anything wrong at all – you had feelings, you talked about them, and that’s that.

It sounds to me like you have a pretty solid foundation upon which to build your eventual marriage 🙂

Post # 5
865 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: June 2020

I went through a lengthy and painful pre-engagement process, and comparatively speaking, your communication with your boyfriend seems much healthier than what I experienced with mine. 

You have plans to move in a few months, and your boyfriend has told you he is going to propose. No one should fault you for expecting and anticipating a proposal any day now. You are allowed to be disappointed when you anticipate something and it doesn’t pan out. What’s important is that you were honest and straightforward with your boyfriend about these feelings, and he reacted with concern for your feelings rather than getting defensive.

IMO, you should not feel guilty for being disappointed. Your boyfriend has to accept the risk of anticipation and disappointment if he wants a surprise proposal with months worth of latitude in the timing. With any luck he may actually be responsive enough to take this situation as a sign to get a move on and avoid it happening again.

I agree though with the previous comments that “very soon” could mean anything really, so if your idea of “very soon” passes and he hasn’t proposed, then you should let him know that you are feeling that the two of you might not be on the same page in terms of the timeline and you just want to clear that up.

Post # 7
923 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: November 2019

I was in a very similar situation a few weeks ago. I was disappointed and we chatted it out which ended with a “very soon”. It helped but what really helped was when I realized (with the help of other bees) that once we are engaged, we will always be engaged and the time we have before our engagement is just as special and worth focusing on. Not that being engaged would make it less special but it allowed me to enjoy the time I had without the stress of planning or in your case a big move! 

So it sounds cliche but enjoy the moments you have now and you’ll see the proposal will follow “very soon”. I swear once I realized that he proposed (last week!) 

Post # 8
913 posts
Busy bee
  • Wedding: September 2015

he must be understanding of your anxiety as well. its kinda messed up he is leaving you hanging. i wouldnt know what the wait is for lol.


Post # 9
2117 posts
Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: May 2017

Everything other bees said mostly. I would absolutely not move across the country and uproot my life for a man I’m not legally tied to. That’s personal for me because I’ve worked too hard for what I have. However, it’s your situation and if you want marriage the first place to start is an engagement.  He would need to for sure propose before the move for me to believe it. The waiting boards are the most daunting topics to me on here because it’s the same stories over and over and sadly a lot of bees end up unhappy or having to walk away. Please don’t be the bee that uproots your life by hanging on his word and then end up across the country with no engagement , no marriage in sight, and a boyfriend who all of a sudden doesn’t know what he wants. You will undoubtedly regret it. Be smart BEFORE that happens.

Post # 10
148 posts
Blushing bee
  • Wedding: June 2018

I think you both handled the situation very well. He should know how you are feeling and he was reassuring in return. 

Post # 11
1282 posts
Bumble bee

Don’t ever feel guilty about sharing your feelings with your partner. It is a vital component of a healthy relationship. 

I know it is hard, but try to to envision every outing as “this is when it will happen” and just enjoy the outing or you will work yourself up into knots.

If he has never given you any reason not to trust him, then believe him. If nothing happens and the move is close then again, be really clear on how you feel and where you stand.

Post # 12
131 posts
Blushing bee

Girl, I hear you. After I embarked on this waiting process…(after our 3 year anniversary) every trip is gonna be slightly dissappointing without a proposal…dang…It’s draining me

Post # 13
1854 posts
Buzzing bee

Never feel guilty for wanting to know what is going on in your relationship. I am glad you spoke up and I am sure that was very hard to do. It is much easier to be passive agressive and silent than speak up when things bug you. Because that makes you feel vulnerable. But that separates the ok relationships from the great ones. I am working on that myself. The ability to own my feelings and tell my boyfriend about them even though it is so hard and makes me feel so vulnerable. So much easier to give him the silent treatment, but that doesn’t help anything. Good for you bee! 

For now try to just find the excitement in not knowing when. Mentally each time you go to somewhere nice just try to not expect it, but just get excited about the process. Enjoy it! That is what I am trying to do. 

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