- 7 years ago
I graduated last year from high school, my twin brother and my cousin should have graduated with me at the same time, however my brother failed 9th grade and my cousin failed 7th. So I graduated alone (yay!) and it was awesome, I went to my school trip (not so great but I got to spend time with my friends), I had my own graduation, I made the speech, it was my moment and I sure enjoy it.
I inmidiatly enter to culinary school and I was doing great, I was at the top of my class and finally feeling like my life was going in the right path. Until second semester, I’m not going to lie I was never 100% happy with my career, but I thought it was just 4 years and then i will be happy, but I was wrong. At least I can be unhappy about something and stayed there, even when I know I can do better. After a month in second semester I made the decision that i wasn’t in the right place and I was changing careers (extremely difficult for a very perfectionist me) and a month later I quit school in order to have time to think about my choices and visit other schools and careers. My parents were super suportive and I love them for that.
So basically now my brother and my cousin are graduating, bot decided not to go to the school trip, so they are having a bigger trip. My cousin in going to London, my brother is going to Florida, hopefully to the Harry Potter park, and hey good for them! But I just have enough of it. I love my brother, he deserves his trip, good for him, but I don’t need to hear about his 1 month trip every single hour of the day, when everyone knows the original plan was for the whole family to go with him.
Then there is my cousin, a little background, she was on the same school as me, in the same grade, but different classroom at the beginning . According to her mom, all of my friends were bullying her and my school never did anything about it. Now, ask her about what the bullying was? hmm she can’t remember, because there was not such thing!. I was there I know an only girl school is not easy, but you can’t call some random comment or behavior bullying. I think Bullying is a very serious issue, so I don’t agree on her becoming the victim of basically nothing and making a huge deal about some girl who throw a juice box at the classroom and landed on my cousin’s desk when my cousin wasn’t even there (at this point my cousin was in the same room as me), both my aunt and my cousin made pretty bad things to the girls, so they have reasons not to be her friends, my cousin was super mean to everyone and my aunt was one of those moms who appear at the school out of nowhere to yell at the girls who didn’t allow my cousin to play with their dolls. So our relationship is not the best, she left the school (again drama here, apparently my aunt was wishing that the principal beg her to stay and quick everyone else for no reason) and they started talking about my school in every family event, something that not only hurt me but also my grandmother (my aunts mom) who works there, and went there. I decided to pull back and not answer, until they started lying about my friends.
My aunt’s family is different from mine, my parents are really lay back and both my brother and me are really social and talk quite a lot, I was the best at the school at some point but my parent were cool if I wasn’t. My aunt and uncle are quite different, they raise my cousin and her brother as they are perfect, beautiful, intelligent, talented, etc. Basically the philosophy of “no one gets us because we are above all” they truly believe they are genius, when one of my cousins failed math, it wasn’t because it was hard, it was because he was such above the grade math program, that it was silly for him, so the math problems were just to easy and inferior for him to solve them. All in their lives is like that. It gets annoying pretty quickly. She is going to London, missing her graduation because “graduation is not important” (yeah right) and every time I see her (we live in the same building go figure) she manage to say something bad about me, my school, my friends or make a face about how I’m doing nothing for now. She wants to go to medical school and off course for them is a fact she enter and all the universities are “fighting for her”. Is just annoying!
Long post sorry, but I don’t know who to talk about this, my parents are just stressed with work and planing all my brother’s stuff, my friends know how my cousin is but I just don’t want to bring that subject with them. Any advice on how to deal with this is more than welcome, another tiny fact is that I’m quite an inoccent girl, so half of the times my aunt or cousin are attacking me I don’t realize until later, too late to answer.
Is really really affecting my happy/bubbly usual mood, because I’m just defensive to everyone because i don’t need to hear how everyone but me is doing great.