- Mrs. Puffin
- 7 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
I’m so stressed. Fiance and I are about 10 days into LDR, I’m all moved into my parents house again, I’m at the same job I worked at when I was living with my parents before, I have no idea if I’ll get the classes I need this quarter, and I’m just feeling frazzled and stressed to the point where I’ve had an almost nonstop headache over the past 5 days.
I’ve been applying for better/different jobs, but I’m freaking out about that, now. I had an interview that I think went all right, but now I can’t stop thinking that I hope I don’t get it, because I’m so scared that I won’t be good at it or that I’ll hate it. On the topic of jobs, Fiance passed his tests for the police department, but they hired the first 26 or so off the list.. and he’s at #190 or so. UGH. So he MAY be moving back up here, or he may stay there and just wait. I don’t think he’s made a decision yet and I have no idea what’s going to happen…
I’m just so anxious, I can’t sleep, I don’t feel good at all. AND! To top it off, I called my college to try to see a counsellor there, and I can’t until classes start.. Another month. I was trying to avoid telling my mom that I want to see a counsellor because I feel like she’ll blow it out of proportion, but I think I need to, so I can find out what our insurance will cover.
I’m sorry if this is scattered. I don’t know where else to go. I just don’t know how to deal with all this, relax, and feel like I’m in control again.