- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
I have noticed a trend recently with my family. I’m not sure if I am just crazy or if this is really happening…but I feel as though everyone is bored with me and has nothing to talk to me about because 1. the wedding is over (like 6 months over) and 2. I am not pregnant.
Back when I turned 25, I felt this strong urge for a baby. However, I recently turned 26 and suddenly everything changed. I realized I want to wait a few more years…but my family (namely my mother) is starting to act bored with me. Now, everytime I call my mother, all she talks to me about are these people that I never met and do not know and never will know and how they are either pregnant or they are expecting a grandchild…yadda yadda. My other family members haven’t been calling me and when I call them it’s like they are waiting with baited breath for me to say “We are expecting!!! OMG!!” and when I don’t say that…it’s like crickets on the other end of the line. There is NOTHING else to talk about (apparently). I used to call my mom everyday and we would talk for a long time…now I call one or two times a week.
I do want children, eventually. My Darling Husband recently told me that it is up to me when we start to try but I want to wait a little longer. I know it’s ok to want to wait, but I’m so tired of my family talking to me about nothing but babies. I am tired of them acting butthurt (mainly my mother) that I am daring to make them wait while I go back to grad school and build a career that will be long lasting. I know that a lot of my family members are bored, but my uterus and what it produces is not just to create a hobby for others. I am supposed to go home for a visit this coming weekend and I am sort of dreading it….because I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT BABIES ALL DAMN DAY. Unless we have an “oops”, I don’t want to try for a baby until I’m about 28ish…because I’ll be out of grad school and I really don’t want anything to keep me from finishing on time.
I just feel like I’m in a strange life stage. Anyone else? I can’t possibly be alone in this newlywed limbo of all eyes on your uterus, can I? Any ways to deal?