- 8 years ago
- Wedding: June 2015
I was vowing to start dieting and it’s the week before my period and I’m SOOO hungry the week before my period (I don’t know if it’s just food cravings, or what, but it sucks, I want to eat everything, and then feel guilty if I do eat everything.)
So I haven’t even started my dieting, it went down the tubes.
We are on a very strict budget because I still don’t have a job (It’s a pain in the butt, Ive been applying everywhere and applying for multiple positions in said places and I’ve only gotten 3 interviews)
We cannot afford to go buy any exercise equipment, we cannot afford healthy food, and we cannot afford a gym membership, we are on that strict of a budget. FH makes too much money to be eligible for Food Stamps so we can only spend 120 dollars every paycheck at the grocery store and this includes:
Dog food, ferret food, health and beauty supplies, anything we genuinely need for the apartment (Trash bags, laundry detergent, etc.)
He also gets paid on the 10th and 25th EVERY month and the 25th is the smaller paycheck, so we went grocery shopping and I tried to buy healthy stuff and then when into panic mode and started guilt tripping myself over spending this much money on food.
and so I recently got my health insurance back so I looked up for what could qualify me for gastric bypass surgery (I’ve been struggling with my weight since high school because I was on many different medications and gained a ton of weight)
Scale at the gyno office last week said I gained 3 pounds and I felt so sh*tty over it – the scale at home said I lost 3 lbs, but their scale is one of those fancy digital ones so it has to be right. We walk our dog everyday together and I’ve been making a true attempt to stay under 1500 calories (I saw a nutritionist before I lost my insurance and she reccomended this for my height and all the other factors)
Well – I have untreated depression so I’m not eligible for gastric bypass, which is news to me and makes me go WTF?
I want to lose weight but feel like I can’t afford it. :/ Is anyone else facing this dilemna?