- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
I hate my wedding! That might be because I never wanted a wedding in the first place! I want to get married. I love my future husband so much! My dream was always to elope, I was strictly forbidden from doing that. . Well it wasn’t really it just crossed my mind when I was younger and all my friends were going on and on about their dream weddings. Most of the things that got them excited really didn’t appeal to me. But I did have three stipulations as far as getting married went, besides a wonderful guy anyway. First I have always wanted to get married in June. I think its because I watched the musical Seven Brides for Seven Brothers a few too many times as a child. Second, I want a pretty wild flower bouquet. And lastly want to look pretty on my wedding day, meaning have a decent fitting dress and a face hairdo that look presentable. Well the day came when I got engaged to the greatest man on the planet, sorry ladies he is :), and wedding planning commenced. I stated from the get go that i wanted a small wedding. Why? Because we aren’t that rich and dont have money to pay for a big shindig, we are aslo in three very states for the planning process. What do i mean by three states? Well I am in college he just graduated this past semester and went back to his parents home until the wedding and the wedding is taking place in my home state in my home church in yet another distant state. So planning anything is impossible and plus i dont want to plan anything, remember the three stipulations i had about my wedding? Well apparantly i am being difficult and demanding by not wanting more things and having more of an opinion on bridesmaids dresses or colors or pictures or cakes! I dont want this wedding! I told my mother she could do whatever she wanted and i would be ok with it. If i have to have a traditional wedding, which i do because my father is a pastor and my future husband and i going to the court house or having a micro wedding like 25 people is simply not ok or good enough, that is fine but why does she keep asking me what i want when i have clearly told her eactly what i want multiple times, and in a very nice and mature manner, and she has no intention of letting me do what i want. i am an adult and i could simply do what i want to, but i hate to burn bridges. i love my mother and my family. my sister has claimed the title of my maid of honor since she found out such things existed. that is fine, but she has done nothing to help me and with her being at college with me i could really use her help planning on this end! i really havent kept in close contact with most of my friends from back home and so the people i reall want to be at my wedding are at college with me and most will not be able to come. The ones who can come both my sister and mother have been pestering me about travel arrangements for them, that is there job/ problem. I get super stressed out about this because my mother and sister are both super stressful to be around, like no joke thats just how they are. i am very easily pulled into that high stress for no reason mindset when i plan things with both of them. I do not like being stressed nor do i like being angry or upset with them or unhappy with my wedding. Now that i have gotten this all off my chest i feel better.