- 6 years ago
Hey guys. I’ll just get right to it. My girlfriend and I have been together for a year now, love each other so so much. Our time together is a feeling neither of us have ever felt anything close to before. We confess our love daily, we have always known that we are just so perfect for each other. Our families are close, I am like a son to them and she is a daughter to my parents. I love this girl very very much and she feels the same for me. Recently she went back to school and I continued working at my job and I will be here for the next couple months until the Spring semester starts in January. We are only 45 minutes away and we make it a point to see each other as often as we can because its hard to be apart after being together at school all last year and throughout the summer at her summer house. We just compliment each other so well and we balance on another out. We love so openly and we see eachother as not only a bg/gf but as a best friend.
Recently I got out of work and a few of my coworkers wanted to have some drinks and sit outside and talk. Now we live at the hotel we work at for the season. I knew some of them but there were some that I had not met before. We were talking and drinking and drinking and I got into a conversation with this girl who told me her boyfriend died in a car crash only four months ago. I was very drunk and she was too and i got emotional, i felt so bad for her and i tried to comfort a little bit because no one deserves to go throught that. we talked a little more and i didnt have any feeling for her though just her situation. She kissed me and I was surprised and I pulled away aftetr a few seconds when i came to my senses and said no no way am i doing this i love my girlfriend so much and i left and went back to my room.
I felt guilty the next morning but i did not tell my gf right away because i knew that there was nothing about it that changed my feelings for her. It was this total random girl who i had shown comfort to when she was sad, only trying to be nice, and she took it as a different thing altogether. I know i should have told her about it but i just feared that she would be so hurt that i was even in that position to begin with and because i knew in my own heart that i did stop it after a couple seconds, state my love for my gf and leave these situation alogether.
She found out through a third party. She found out on facebook because the girl had messaged me saying sorry that she did that and i said dont be sorry emotions were high there was a lot of alcohol but I love my girlfriend with all my heart. She was very understanding. My gf was convinced to go on my facebook account, her roommate knew some way to hack onto it. SO she did it and she found the message from the girl and me replying. She mentioned how we kissed and my gf saw that and she called me immediately and told me its over. Never again will she be with me. The last few days have been really hard not talking to her and seeing her. I know its bad that i kinda set myself up for that but i love my gf so much. This was such an empty mistake that truly carried no weight over how much i love and wanna be with my gf, and how she is the only person in my heart. Shes very mad understandably and i probably shouldve told her but i stated why i didnt. She wants some space to figure it out and i am giving it to her.l Is this a forgiveable act or do you think shes gone?