- 6 years ago
I broke up with my ex because I had reached my waiting limit. I ended up engaged to my next boyfriend, but I broke that engagement. After the break-up, my ex and I started spending time together, again. He was trying so hard to win me back, but I insisted on keeping my options open, and I continued to date other guys.
During our awkward, “not together but not separate” period, everything was great. We never fought, had tons of fun together, and we were both super happy. He talked about marriage and our possible future together all the time. He kept telling me that if I took him back, we’d be engaged within three months. He kept telling me he’d marry me tomorrow and tried to get me to the JOP one day.
It happened a bit sooner than I would have liked, but he did convince me to date him exclusively. Of course, his lack of enthusiasm for marriage was the only issue I had with him, and I thought that issue had resolved itself.
He told me how awful life was without me and how stupid he was for not just proposing a long time ago. I thought he had gotten the reality check he needed-engagement wasn’t going to be an issue, anymore.
Yep, I was wrong.
As soon as we became official, all discussion of a future with me stopped. He can’t propose because he doesn’t have any money for a ring. Engagement/marriage is once again the taboo topic we avoid. Somehow, I ended up right back in the same situation.
It’s no one’s fault but my own-I don’t know why I thought his entire attitude towards marriage could change overnight. Words cannot express how sad and disapointed I am. I can’t deny that I love this man, and I thought everything was finally coming together.
What am I supposed to do, now? I’m so upset with myself. I can’t believe I actually trusted him. I don’t WANT to leave him, but I don’t feel like I have much of a choice. Besides, we got back together based on a lie-what future could there possibly be for us?