- 4 years ago
- Wedding: October 2013
this really makes no sense to me, but it’s true. For 2.5 years I worked at a place that had me frustrated every day. I was a manager and yet had no power to do my job and the things expected of me. I constantly worked with unruly young horses and was expected to train them, which I really dislike and have no experience with. the company itself was never going to make money, the business will ultimately fa. I also had to love on site with my new husband in a trailer with a roommate, and basically lived my entire existence in one tiny room.
on the other hand though, I worked with animals I loved dearly. I brought my dog to work with me every day, I was active in the sunshine, worked with one of my very closest friends (who bonded with me over the living situation and bad job.) We were able to spend so much time together and I was in my dream job description, learning things in the career that I loved. I knew my place and had the power to control some of my environment since I was in charge.
ultimately, I just found a new job, and at first was soooo happy to get out of the dead end situation I was in. and I do love my new job and new place! So it’s not like I’m unhappy now. But I am struggling with jealousy over the girl that replaced me! I see her doing my job and romanticise the situation, only remembering it as sunshine and rainbows and not why I left lol. And I am jealous of the time she gets to spend with my friend, which is much more difficult for me to do now that I work nights. She will be leaving the job in a few months anyway, so I know it wouldn’t be the same if I had stayed but still.
I feel rediculous! After wanting to be out for so long now I’m jealous to get back in! Logic says it was a good choice to leave, it was time. Ahh we humans are crazy aren’t we??