- 8 years ago
I HATE being alone ad never in my life have I ever spent so much time alone. My hubby is in the coast guard and works around 70% of the time. I’m talking about spending the night at the base and us not seeing each other for 3-4 days at a time. He is supposed to get off around 6 a.m. after he gets done working a stay over shift, however here it is 11:45 and he still isn’t home and since I haven’t heard from him I have no idea when he will actually make it here. Now he has to go to c school and he will be gone for 6 weeks where I won’t see him at all. I feel like I am about to lose my mind… I am a stay at home mom and I never get to go anywhere and I have no friends since I’m new to the area. I lived in Texas for 21 years and have always had the same group of friends and been near my family so his hours before didn’t bother me as much. I just want to cry all the time and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it… that is the worst part. His hours are just getting worse and worse and I am just getting more miserable. Not to mention he has a dangerous job and is out doing search and rescue in horrible weather which puts me on edge even more. I didn’t go to sleep until 3:30 a.m. last night because they were out on the water doing a S&R and there were tornadoes in the area, I can’t sleep unless I know he is at home and alright.
I literally feel like the worst military wife ever and like I can’t handle this anymore. He always says “well you knew I was in the military and that I’d be working a lot”. Ummm not this much, he worked about half this much in Texas.
Edit to add that it is having a bad effect on our daughter too… she always cries and asks for him since he is never here. She has separation issues and flips when he leaves.. now she won’t sleep in her bed because she is afraid I will leave too.