(Closed) I think I'm considering suicide……

posted 5 years ago in Emotional
Post # 2
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Sugar bee

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amb1030 :  Please don’t commit suicide. Your child needs you. Please seek help!

 

Post # 3
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Helper bee

PLEASE call a suicide hotline: 1-800-273-8255 or you can even chat online at http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

You have more options available to you! I promise that you do. There are steps you can take to get on your own two feet and surrond yourself with loving people. Your children love you, and they need you. Do it for them, and do it for yourself! 

Post # 4
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Buzzing Beekeeper
  • Wedding: August 2016

Honey, call 1-800-273-8255 and talk to someone. These types of thoughts are so dangerous and no one deserves to have them. Please call this number so someone in your area can help you get the resources you need.

Post # 5
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Bumble bee
  • Wedding: July 2017 - The Lodge at Little Seneca Creek

 I agree with PP. Call the national suicide prevention lifeline, and they will be able to help you much more than any of us can. <3

Post # 6
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Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: May 2017

Listen! You are not worthless! You are a strong person and have literally been beaten up and bruised and they have not broken you. This is the lack of sleep and lack of support talking. You do not need to end it by killing yourself. You need to end it by leaving your ungrateful husband. I know you think there is no where to go, but there are shelters and programs for moms in your situation. Please don’t see this as the end. You are an amazing person and mother and your kids need you! The world needs you! I’m here for you. Please don’t do anything drastic. If your husband doesn’t want counseling, go for yourself and when you are strong enough you leave him! 

Post # 7
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Busy bee

Please call the suicide hotline. PP have posted the number. You are important!

Post # 9
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Helper bee

I’m so sorry to hear everything you are going through. Know this: you are not defective, everyone has their own problems and struggles, and every day you make it through is a day you have survived. Life doesn’t have to be sunshine and rainbows all the time, but making it through each day is an accomplishment. For you, and for your kids.

I would implore you to call the police or a suicide hotline when you’re feeling really low like now. You will be able to vent to a real person, and you might be surprised how understanding and encouraging they can be of your situation.

If the situation is that bad with your husband you are considering suicide, it is time to leave. It’s not true that you won’t be able to leave until your son is older. There are women’s shelters that can help you to get back on your feet, and you should be able to qualify for benefits with your health issues.

You could go to group meetings to talk through your struggles with other women in similar situations. They sometimes offer crèches to look after your children while you are at the meetings.

I’m sure if you tell us your area then the bees will be able to give you information on local assistance. Don’t give up hope. Your children need you.

Post # 10
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Buzzing bee
  • Wedding: April 2018

Sweetie, you are worth so much more then the way you are being treated. 

You need to leave him. Do you have friends you could stay with with you get on your feet? Start looking into programs you could quality for as a single parent. If you need a GED to financial support. I know there are also sliding scales for therapy, which you will need to work on what you have gone through and will go through. 

I came from an abusive family. There is still a lot I am dealing with. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to message me. 

Post # 11
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Helper bee
  • Wedding: September 2017

It is not your fault that you were abused. It’s not your fault that you are being abused, which, yes, you are. He is emotionally abusive. They are the ones that aren’t normal. 

I think you need a plan to get out. To get you and your children away from them all, for good. Talk to someone, like through a prevention hotline (National Suicide Prevention Hotline – 1-800-273-8255). They can help you find a women’s shelter and give you emotional support. (The Bee will give you support too, I’m sure, but it’s really nice to hear it, too) They’ll have resourse suggestions for your area, since you wouldn’t want to give that away online. 

Do you get any SSI? Do you have anyone willing to help you financially for a bit? Can you make and sell anything, just to build up a little cash for the initial transition?

Suicide isn’t the answer. You have babies, and they love you more than anything. You cannot be replaced. 

Post # 12
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Sugar bee

Definitely call a suicide hotline.

However, do not resign yourself to an unhappy and unhealthy marriage just for your child. Do you qualify for any governmental disability aid? Look into programs for women with children because there are some that can also offer assistance during a period of divorce and needing relocation. Your husband will also need to be held accountable in giving child support and there are programs you should look into for single mothers.

I know all of this seems overwhelming and it won’t be easy but in the long run it’s better than being in a bad living arrangement and better than your son not being able to have his mother. There are options and you just have to find the right hands/resources to help you take the next step.

If you are able to disclose location (it’s fine if you can’t), I’m sure many bees can find some options for you to contact. Otherwise, please try to look for resources in your area. In the meantime though, definitely contact a hotline if you’re feeling suicidal and they will also have references for you.

I’m very sorry for your situation and what you’re dealing with. I know that doesn’t help you at all but this is a place of support so you should know many of the women here have you in their hearts.

Post # 13
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Helper bee
  • Wedding: September 2017

IMAlive.org has an online chat, if it’s not safe to talk on the phone.

Post # 14
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Newbee
  • Wedding: July 2017

Please please please please do not do anything to harm yourself. I know you are feeling stuck and in a difficult situation but please do not make any harmful decisions. Suicide is a permanent decision to a temporary situation. I know you feel stuck and hopeless, but you can make it out of this situation and be much happier. There is no shame in seeking help. I urge you to reach out to a therapist for counseling. This is the National Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255. Please give them a call, they will help you. It is also not shameful to ask for help or to even voluntarily check in to a hospital if you are scared of harming yourself. I have many friends that have voluntarily gone to the hospital in difficult times and came back a million times stronger. There are tons of resources. If you are feeling mentally abused in your current relationship, it is okay if you feel safer to leave. A counselor can help you make those decisions and can probably help you find resources (such as a job or shelter) to support yourself and your children. You are important, you are loved, and you are worth seeking help to improve your life.

Post # 15
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Blushing bee

Hey bee, first and foremost i’m sorry you’re going through a hard time. I think it’s a huge step that your admitting these thoughts to other people, even if they are on the internet.

Can you voluntarily check yourself into a psychatric hospital? Even if just for a few days? It would give you time and resources to process all of these thoughts, away from your kids, husband, and abusive family. Regardless of whether your husband wants to get counseling, you definitly should on your own.

I would get up early tomorrow morning, leave a note explaining and go check yourself into a hospital. 

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