- 9 years ago
- Wedding: March 2013
In my last post I expressed my concern about possibly not speaking the same language with my bf and then found out we weren’t, in fact, it looks like I was way ahead than him in operating under the assumption that he was about 3 months close to pop’ing the question.
After our last conversation and my tears, he came home from work and was very affectionate(well he always is but) and told me that he was thinking and googled and read some stuff at work. I asked if he had time for that, he said it’s more important. He said he didn’t read stuff by women because it’s biased, which I found funny. He also said he’d do counselling. Also his mother got angry at him over the phone. I don’t know what he said to her but obviously his mother can’t wait for his son to be married already (in general, she is very old fashioned).
It means a lot to me that he’s trying to work at it and I know all these conversations, my tears and mother getting pissed is pressure and is not good. But I’m so worried. I’m not that young and I want what I want. The past month was very good I was doing good.
He has always told me not to worry but I am… I don’t know what he’s going thorough in his head but it must be hard for him too. How is he going to get himself together! He’s looking for tools to help him get over fears but would it help? I want to be supportive but I feel so impatient!
Sorry long, and all over the place. I guess I’m confused.