- 3 months ago
- Wedding: May 2017
I honestly never thought I’d be making a post like this, but since getting married in May, I have had serious baby fever. My whole family knows me as one to not be a fan of the tiny humans, but lately my hormones are like, “Yeah! We can do this now!! And by now, we mean like now!” I’m excited about these new emotions, because like I said, I’ve never had an urge like this before!
Anyways, my husband is in board. We would love to have children at the moment.
Here’s where the hellish parts come in:
DH and I are 25 and 23, respectively. In two weeks, we are moving 1000+ miles away from all of our friends and family for him to go to law school and for me to get my masters in biology and education. We don’t have jobs lined up in our temporary new town. We’ll be living on loans until I can find a job, NOT IDEAL! We’ll be renting an apartment, and I would prefer trying to buy a house before a baby. Also, trying to have a baby (even if we were crazy enough to start trying), we would want to do it when we have the love and support of our family near us, not 1000+ miles away.
The biggest thing that scares me, is we don’t even know if we can have children… my DH had leukemia as a young child, and although he has been cancer free since the age of 13, all of the experimental procedures and chemo and whatnot has taken a lot on his body… we don’t know if he can have children. When I bring up the idea of a baby, he gets very excited but quickly follows it up with (in a heartbreaking tone), “We might not even be able to have a baby. So don’t get too excited…”. We will get tested for fertility, we just can’t afford it at the moment.
I want to be more stable when brining a child into the world. Any advise to keep the urge at bay? We’re on about a 5 year plan right now: 3 years in professional school, 1 year to move back and get into a stable career, another year to save for a house, and then baby. But all that seems so far away!
Thanks for listening to my ramblings! Any advise or kind words and wisdom would be greatly appreciated!