- Mrs Hedgehog
- 8 years ago
- Wedding: July 2011
In our relationship I have always been ready for things before Mr. Hedgie. I had to wait on him to get an apartment. I had to wait on him to finally propose. I have to wait on him to graduate so we can decide where we are living. Where we live will even be determined by him because while I can get a job anywhere, he can’t. So, we will probably ending up staying in DFW until he can find a job elsewhere and the HOPE that it is where I want to be. Even the simple things I have to work around him. Scheduling meetings with vendors? Well, let me move this around so that I am available when he is. It just gets draining after a while. And the most frustrating part is there is nothing I can do about it. His schedule is simply more demanding than mine. His job is harder to get into than mine, and his degree is taking longer than mine. So, when I say I want a puppy… I want a damn puppy! I don’t want to have to wait until he is ready. “we wont be home enough” I’m home almost every day during the day and when I leave at night he is home! “we can’t afford it” well, quit going out to eat so damn much! “we just aren’t ready for one” uhm… you aren’t ready for one… I have been for 2 years! I am just so sick of having to wait on him to finally decide to get one in order for me to have a puppy!
But here is part of the problem. I know, because he talks in his sleep, that he wants to get me one as a wedding present. So, he IS ready and we CAN afford it. But, honestly, I would prefer to be able to pick one out now and enjoy it for that much longer rather that waiting until after our honeymoon to pick one out. Sounds stupid when you realize the wedding is just 4 months away but honestly, that is 4 months I don’t want to wait. I am tired of waiting. But I can’t tell him that because it is supposed to be a purprise and I am not supposed to know. I don’t want to ruin it for him but I am honestly getting angry.
Sometimes I feel like such a bitch.