- 5 years ago
- Wedding: February 2012
Been married for 2 years almost.
My husband has had low sperm count from the very beginning. He was married previously and knew about his health problem. But he didnt tell me about it until six months after our marriage. It was a nightmare, especially after I had been TTC ever since we got married. It took me a long time to recover from this break of trust.
We both love kids, in fact we are crazy about them. It was just hard to comprehend that we may not have kids at all.
After endless trips to three urologists, his count is normal but still no luck!
A year after marriage, my gyne doctor advised me to seek proper help and go for IUI. I went for laproscopy last year in june and since last year have been on ovulation medicines. In the meanwhile, I was diagnosed with PCOs so I have no choice but to go for monthly meds and then TVS to check my follicles. It’s an extremely tiring process.
I even quit my job to just work on my baby project.
In December we finally decided to go for our IUI ( the first one). I had read so many success stories about people getting pregnant on their first try but we werent that lucky. Now I just wonder if IUI even works?
All those medicines for ovulating and then taking duphaston until you actually have your period have just made me put on weight and an emotional wreck!
Honestly, I’m just tired and it’s been so testing for me. I dont know if I should go ahead with another IUI and eventually follow it up with IVF. I keep on thinking what if IVF doesnt work out either?
Now I get the feeling I’m not supposed to ever have a child of my own and it just breaks my heart. Most of the times, I’m just depressed and I weep ( literally cry is a small word). I pray to God to bless me with a child or just take this feeling away – that desire to have my own baby.
I’m writing this post as a way to reach out to women who are just like me – struggling. I just feel no one else is able to understand me considering everyone’s around me had a baby so easily and I’m literally the odd one out!!!
Cry for distress….anyone out there? 🙁