- 7 years ago
- Wedding: October 2010
weight I gained on my long honeymoon.
Ok so here goes, my weight loss journey started about 3 1/2 years ago. My brother got engaged and all the heavy girls in the family vowed to lose weight for the wedding. I was the only one that did lose weight by the time the wedding came. I started somewhere over 300 pounds, who wants to get on a scale when they are lying to themselves about how big they really have gotten? So I don’t know how much I really weighed. I know I was in a size 24 tight, oh wow it’s crazy to think back to that. I lost the weight by counting calories and doing Taebo every other day.
Fast forward to today – I am a size 8 and was getting really close to a size 6 by the time the wedding came. We went on our honeymoon which was a 4 day cruise, then to New Orleans for a 7 day cruise and about a week in New Orleans spending time with my husband’s family. I gained FIFTEEN pounds in a month’s time. Real weight!! I never dreamed that I would really gain that much weight that fast, and I wasn’t gorging, but I wasn’t pushing the plate away either.
OK I lost weight before, I know what to do, write down everything I eat and count those calories. I do the elliptical 2 times a week for 95 minutes and on Sundays I do 1 hour on the elliptical then take a break and do another hour. I also do 2 days of weight training on my lunch hour at work. I do great during the week, but when the weekends come watch out. I don’t count calories on the weekends and consider them FREE weekends. Bad mistake, I am eating way too much on the weekends and throwing away all the hard work I do during the week. I have freak out moments and just eat, eat, eat. I’ll eat sliced cheese, then decide some crackers would be nice with the cheese, oh and that honeybun looks good, and whatever else looks yummy. I feel guilty afterwards and hate myself, but I can’t stop once I start, I just don’t care until afterwards. My hubby wants to go out to eat and have fun and enjoy and I always over indulge. I even tell myself ok no buffets this weekend then I find ways for us to go out to eat, what the heck!! Why do I do this to myself. I am happy, I’m not depressed, I just like the taste of food and ENJOY eating. I tell myself ok we are newlyweds, we need to have fun. But I also really enjoy being in shape and fitting into my pants comfortably, which is not happening now since the weight had decided to park itself on my thighs and butt 🙁
My husband weighs 175 and is 6 ft tall, he can eat whatever he wants and doesn’t gain a lb. He is no help either since he has been with me since I was 300 pounds, he always tells me I am beautiful and never criticizes me. Which is a blessing, but also a curse because he doesn’t understand that I can’t have snacky things in the house and I don’t want to deprive him because I can’t control myself. He has never had to watch his weight and doesn’t understand at all. I have considered going to overeaters anonymous, but feel like they will look at me like I’m stupid for being there. I need something to curb my appetite, I don’t know what to do, well I do know what to do I just don’t do it. Anyone have any suggestions?