- 8 years ago
- Wedding: April 2011
Thinking about our wedding makes me sick! Planning it so far away from home was the most idiotic idea we ever had. I have wasted the last months with spending countless hours searching the internet, trying to put everything together to have our perfect dream wedding at the beach. Stupid and ridiculous idea. So far almost everything that has to do with the wedding is annoying and disappointing. I would love to cancel everything, not only the wedding but the whole vacation. But we have already booked and paid our flights and hotel, and paid deposits. We are leaving in two and a half months, and I still haven’t found the right location. How could I, if there is nobody who could help me, and all I can do is using google and tripadvisor- again stupid and ridiculous, and obviously impossible.
There are some nice hotels at the beach, but of course they don’t want us to have our wedding there. Dear hotels, I am so sorry that we don’t have a minimum of 100 guests, that we don’t need a minimum of 20 hotel rooms, and that we can’t afford and don’t need to stay for a minimum of 5 nights at 250$ per night…
There were only two out of hundreds of places that might have suited our budget, needs and wishes, but well, seems like they are not in need of responding to customers (btw, like lots of other possible vendors I contacted)
The cake has to be ordered at least 4 weeks in advance, but where should I have it delivered to?? “Hey Publix bakery, we’re somewhere at the beach, just try to find us there”
I found a great photographer and a make-up artist, but now all I can think is “It’s gonna be a lame and lousy and disappointing day, so what do I need them for?”
I have already bought so much stuff I wanted to use for the wedding, and so many ideas for DIY projects. Right now I would just love to throw it all away.
Finally, my dress which I ordered from China was shipped today and will arrive within the next 5 days. And suddenly I have a really bad feeling about it. Tonight I had dress nightmares all night, and that was even before I knew it was shipped. I’m sure it will either be too small or look horrible or probably both.
I’m in a terrible depressive mood right now, i have been crying for the last two hours and I can’t stop because I feel so miserable about this whole disappointing wedding stuff, and I wish we never would have made this decision. We should have booked a resort with an all inclusive package or a cruise or whatever, unfortunately that was not within our budget. Everything would have been better than planning it all by myself, I now feel dumb, uncapable and miserable, because nothing works out and nothing fits together, and I wish I could just call everything off