- 8 years ago
- Wedding: March 2014
Well, it’s been an emotional ride up until this point. And I’ve decided that I don’t really want to be engaged anymore. I still love him, and I still plan to marry him, but nothing is working, and I’m not sure I can handle being engaged indefinitely. I’ve been thinking about this for a while now, and I just feel like I have to share them with someone because it’s been driving me mad keeping it (mostly) all to myself. My Boyfriend or Best Friend isn’t very emotional ( ok, as emotional as a brick) and rarely talks about anything. Essentially I got, “It’s whatever you think is best.” And that’s probably about as much as it will be discussed or talked about…
- My parents, nor his parents are really thrilled about the idea of their “little babies” getting married. His mother has been dealing with health problems and various other family problems as well. My family is just frustrated with him and how different he sees things. Opposites attract though right? Although I will admit, our differences in upbringing have been making us a little more irritated with each other lately.
- We can’t ever set a date and stick with it. His financial aid didn’t come through and has pushed his graduation date back to the day before we were supposed to get married. And, he wanted to be done with his probationary period at his new job before we got married.
- As I previously stated, I could barely deal with the fact that I had to wait 1 year and a half to marry him, much less not know when I was going to be able to, considering we’re working around my school schedule. We haven’t found any dates around our last date that will work.
I just, can’t do this. I’ve spent most of our engagement crying over things that keep getting in the way. I can’t do it anymore. I’ve been genuinely depressed since the day after he popped the question. All the negativity, all the setbacks, have just gotten to me.
I’m not sure that I will be on the boards much, although I did enjoy all of the posts and pictures and stories.
I also have to hand it to all of you brides who have long engagements, I just can’t do it.
I know I wasn’t a long time member or anything, but I can’t wait to be back when I can really plan a wedding that is really going to happen, without hitch, without uncertainty.