Post # 1
So I had breast reduction surgery 2 weeks ago. I alternate between loving them and hating them. I know this is normal, and I’ll get used to them, but today I’m having a really rough day.
My home football team had a game today (Winnipeg Blue Bombers of Canadian Football League fame), I went (I got dropped off right at the gates and picked up at the gates so I didn’t have to walk far, so it was really just sitting). I have all these cute shirts from the bomber store that made my old girls look fab, and now they don’t look as great. And of course I saw several women with larger breasts wearing the same shirt and it looked so awesome on them. It made me think that I maybe went too small (I went from a 32F/G to what should be a 32 C).
Also, even though between surgery and not eating much for a few days post op (I was too tired to eat much) I lost 10 lbs, but I still feel fat. It all came off my chest but having a large chest balanced out my belly a little. Now that I’m so small up top, I feel like my stomach is HUGE! I keep trying to tell myself that now it’ll be so much easier to exercise and that in a couple months I’ll be back to 100% and can start running and what not, which I found hard to do before. And then the weight should come off, but in the mean time, I just feel fat. But I know I’m not. A few extra lbs yes, but fat I am not (I’m 5’4 and am now 150 lbs).
Then to make matters worse, I forgot to ask Fiance to help me take care of my scars before bed so I had to do it myself (basically I have to wash them, check to make sure there’s no major issues with them, and apply polysporin, and let them breathe for a bit without any shirt/post op bra on). Well I was looking at them in the mirror and I SWEAR they are lopsided. They’re both the same size, but my one nipple is lower than the other. And again I know I’m still healing so it’s probably just a swelling thing. But at the same time I’m so scared that they’re going to end up lopsided in the end.
I know all of this is just post surgical ‘depression’ which I’ve been warned about, but it still made for a tough day, and I needed to vent. Maybe you bees could post some funny photos/jokes to cheer me up? Or just offer re-assurance that everything will be okay?
Post # 3
@futuremrste: sorry to hear you are feeling down. It is normal to question yourself, I do it all the time!! I always change my mind about things, but the fact is you would not have had surgery without good reasons, and I am sure you will be happy once all the swelling has gone down and the scars have healed. Dont be so hard on yourself (i know it is easy to say) as we are all guilty of it but you have just had surgery so let yourself heal.
Post # 4
@traveller: Thanks. I had the reduction done because I was experiencing a lot of back pain, which was leading to migraines (it got to the point where I could pretty much pinpoint to the hour when I would get a migraine. My back would get worse and worse and worse, to the point where it would make my head would hurt so bad that I’d have to just lie in bed for a day in the dark and not do anything for a full 12 hours, which would make my back feel better too, for at least a day).
And there were a lot of clothes that I looked TERRIBLE in. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve gone shopping for dresses for various events and ended up crying in the changeroom because nothing fit. If it fit my chest, it was too big in the waist, if it fit my waist, it wouldn’t fit my chest. But at the same time I’ve spent years building up a wardrobe that complemented my large chest, and now so many things just don’t look as good. It’s sad, especially since I can’t spend a ton of money on new clothes to complement my new shape, since we’re saving up for the wedding and I just spent a ton of $ on my surgery.
Oh and the other thing that has me down, I had a pretty large lump of tissue that got pushed up into my armpit. I acually had an ultrasound done on it because my Dr. was worried it could be cancer (it was just tissue, nothing wrong with it) but it looked ugly. They removed the lump and some excess skin, so I have a scar in my armpit, but looking in the mirror, the lump doesn’t look any smaller (I hated wearing anything sleeveless because of the lump, and now it looks like the lump is still there AND there’s a scar making me hate my armpit even more!). Again I keep trying to tell myself it’s just swelling and it will look fine once everything is healed, but I’m still so worried that it will look like crap.
Post # 5
@futuremrste: you poor thing! Those reasons are exactly why you needed to have it done, you cant live your life like that. You just wont be used to the look yet, Im sure you wont regret getting it done. I have a biggish breasts also for my frame (DDs) and get a lot of back pain. I also just had a cyst removed from my armpit 2 weeks ago. I have fibrocystic breast condition (as well as endo…sigh…fun and games :-), and get painful lumps in my breast. I have had that cyst for 9 months or more. It was cut out 2 weeks or so ago and also tested for cancer, but it was benign. I just got the stitches out last monday and I dont like my scar (its quite small tho) but it will fade Im sure. Also we are the same in that my scar is the same size as my cyst was so it looks like it is still there but it is now pink. At least it isnt oozing out anymore, that was horrible to deal with.
Post # 6
You sound just like me when I had mine done! It takes some getting used to, for sure. I cried the first time I put on real clothes after my surgery! I just looked so different. But once you give yourself some time to adjust you’ll feel a lot better! It’s hard going from one extreme to the next! But you’ll start to love them! And in my experience just not being in pain all the time was well worth it for me!
Post # 7
hugs. my boobs shrunk after i stopped breastfeeding my kids so i hate how small i am (barely an b) when i was breastfeeding i was a full c . make sure you eat and just take time to recover.
Post # 8
Totally normal to feel the way you are! In fact, when I got my braces off, I almost wanted them back on. It’s hard to adjust to significant physical changes!
Sometimes when I get down on myself, I read a book and forget all about real life for awhile. This sounds kinda morbid, but if I read a book that is kind of “heavy” (think war, disease, or death), it makes me realize that my life could be worse. Hang in there 🙂
Post # 9
I don’t have any personal experience, but one of my best friends got breat implants a few years ago after being very unhappy with her chest for years (she is (and was) a beautiful girl, but was completely flat). I know she went through a period for about a year where she just wasn’t happy with implants – she thought they were too big, or too small, too lopsided, too…basically everything. Now, three (or four?) years later she’s completely happy. I would imagine with such a big change it will take a while to get used to the change. Plus, you’re still healing. I’m sure it will take a while for all the fluid to be gone and the swelling to be down – so don’t make any hard feelings about the new girls yet.
As far as the lopsided thing, it might be in your imagination, it might be because you’re still healing, and if it’s not? Heck, my boobs are perfectly even – I don’t think anyone’s are!
Post # 10
@futuremrste: I had the same surgery and I’m the same height/build as you by the sound of it. It does get easier and pretty soon you will be feeling much lighter/more free. The scars fade really quickly. I had my surgery done a year and a half ago and you can barely tell.
I have the opposite ‘depression’ type problem. My boobs are way smaller now but I STILL wish they were smaller. I sometimes look at the before and after photos though and am amazed. They do look so much better now and I can wear an exercise bra (just one!), and I am not embarrassed to be topless in front of my boyfriend.
As far as the lopsided thing goes, you are only 2 weeks into recovery. My surgeon told me that they won’t settle for a YEAR. A lot of swelling still has to go down and the shape will change. This is all normal. With that said, however, ‘natural’ boobs are usually a bit differely sized, and even after the surgery, my left one is still a bit bigger than the right. It’s really hard to tell, though. It isn’t an exact science, and you just have to try to be less nitpicky.
As far as now comparing yourself to women w. bigger boobs, you need to remember the reasons why you got the surgery in the first place. Once you really start to recover I am sure you will be excited how much easier it is to do things, fit things, etc.
Post # 11
Sweetie I’m sure you look gorgeous!! And you will be so much more comfortable now I’m sure, with things like exercising! Also, I am a 34C so pretty much your new size, and I don’t usually have a problem with my cleavage being too showy with most shirts and dresses… I dunno if that was an issue for you before, but now you shouldn’t have to worry about it!! It is a fabulous size and I wish you the speediest recovery!
Post # 12
Here’s a funny pic to cheer you up
Post # 13
I lost weight a few years back and it really shrank my boobs. It was horrifying at first. I was like MY PRECIOUS BOOBS ARE GONE!!! and honestly, I’d already come to identify with being big-boobed, it really was part of my identity!! I got almost body-dysmorphic for a while because I was going around complaining how flat I looked…and I was still a very full 32-C (and eventually back to a 32-D when my stress levels went down). But to me I looked flat. I also felt that my smaller boobs made my stomach look bigger. I walked around feeling like that for a while before I admitted it to someone….I told a friend with small-Bs that we were the same size and she balked (note: in my dysmorphic state, she seemed to have slightly bigger boobs than me). It was only when I started telling people and seeing them be SUPER CONFUSED that I started to see my boobs in a more realistic light.
Time really will heal this one!
Post # 14
@futuremrste: I had a reduction done about 5 years ago, I went from a 34 DDD/F to a 34 C. I had major regret right away I felt like I just looked totally different. This quickly went away once I was fully healed and the scarring, swelling went away and my breast were able to “relax”. I now love my new boobs, clothes fit much better, I can be active without back pain. One thing that made me feel better was going bra shopping for the first time and being able to buy a cute/sexy bra that didn’t have 2in straps, which I needed before to hold up my girls.
Post # 15
I think it’s normal to have those ups and downs when you change your appearance so dramatically. Give it time, I think you will feel better. You will have less back pain for one thing 🙂 and your clothes will fit better for sure.