Post # 1
Bees, the stress is crushing me. ALSO.. if you have nothing nice to say I don’t care to hear it right now. I feel like I can’t breathe and I just need some support.
I hate my job. I hate, hate, hate it. I can’t wait to leave. I’ve been applying to tons of jobs and, nothing. It’s sucking my soul, and every time I step foot there I’m instantly depressed. I know there’s only three months left, but I’m pretty sure I’m either going to walk out or get fired before I move back home. I work over 40 hours a week and still make barely enough every paycheck to pay all my bills and feed myself.
I need to plan how to move back home, and I’m not sure how much I can fit in my car which BY the way needs new tires, new belts, and probably a lot of other work before I drive it cross country, which as previously mentioned I don’t really have money to do.
On top of that, I just started summer classes which I’ve been so excited for, and working REALLY hard on, and I just realized I MISSED one of the quizzes I need to take. ALREADY! It’s only been two damned weeks. I’m so mad at myself, and I feel like if I’m already overwhelmed and missing important things two weeks in, I’m just going to fail. I’m so scared.
I’m trying so hard and I just feel like I’m going to crumble under all this pressure. I can’t stop crying right now. I’m just feeling so low.. and J doesn’t get off work for a few hours..
I just need a hug 🙁 verbal or otherwise. 🙁
Post # 3
I’m sorry. Big hug via WB for you. I have totally been where you’re at… Having a job that is so terrible and exhausting really can ruin your life for a time… I hope you can make it. Sure it’s “only” three months, but when every second of those three months sucks the life out of you, it’s an eternity.
Do you have family from whom you could borrow money for car repairs? I know it sucks to have to ask for a loan but when the funds just aren’t there, I’m sure they’d rather lend you the money than watch you drive cross-country in a car that isn’t road-worthy.
Wishing you the best. Try to keep your head above water!
Post # 4
I’m sending a hug your way even though I don’t know you. I hope it can be of some comfort <hugs>
When you feel like this, sometimes it seems as if there’ll never be a way out of it, but there always is. I find that occasionally a good cry helps me to release everything I’m feeling and afterwards I can take a deep breathe and reassess things.
It may seem tough now, but things will get better for you, I’m sure of it.
Post # 5
I remember how hard juggling work and school is and I hate, hate, hate my job too so I feel for you hunny. Keep your chin up and hang in there because it can’t stay bad forever.
Post # 6
Thank you guys!! Sorry it took me so long to get back to this, lol! I’ve spent most of the last two days on homework and I feel a ton better and more on track. J took me out to dinner when he got home and was being really sweet.
I feel way better. And I’m going to try my best to prioritize my time and everything so I don’t end up looking like this by the end of Summer term: