- 6 years ago
- Wedding: June 2012
…and inflicts upon her well-intentioned mother a tirade born of the unfortunate convergence of frustration and exhaustion. Breakdown may have been provoked. Mother reacts with unusual calm. ProfessorGirl leaves conversation teary with fatigue and wondering how many more such occurrances are to be expected.
I am losing it at small provocations now (although some of them are NOT small – I really can’t be expected do everything!). But seriously? My parents come up with more things for me to do, and I’m already doing almost everything (FFIL recently took over the rehearsal dinner, because he’s a love and a half who realized I was about to crack, and my neighbor just took over my Girls’ Night Out, which may have chaotic and perhaps misdemeanor-level results. Fiance is handling the DJ. I am for real doing every single other thing for the whole entire wedding). I’m exhausted and overwhelmed, and on the verge of losing it entirely. All the little shit is getting to me.
I did tell my mom that at this point, criticism of any choice or decision I’ve made will be taken as the speaker volunteering to do that for me. She said she thought that sounded fair. I calmed down, sort of. But it’s all at the surface, all the time. I’ve never been a particularly zen person, and now I’m like a tornado walking around – what can I do, besides take up narcotics?
Bees? How do you keep from cracking in the last few weeks?