I went to college with the childhood dream of becoming a physician. I realized in my first year (after an organic chemistry debacle) that likely, I wasn’t going to be able to get the grades in the pre med classes that I needed to get into med school and ended up pursuing a degree in psych. I also decided, after getting accepted into a PhD program for psych, that that wasn’t for me either, and did a masters in healthcare administration and I’ve been working in healthcare management for the past 20 years.
A couple of thoughts- 1. you don’t have to be a pre-med major- you can major in violin, art, history, or whatever your passions are- so long as you take the required classes to get yourself into med school and prepare for the MCAT, the world is your oyster- you can even still major in business. 2. If you thought the pre-med classes were hard, or you weren’t getting the grades, you’re probably right. You can do a lot of things (tutors, study groups etc.) if this is something you want to change- but medical school is also hard, so it’s likely not going to get easier (my husband is a physician, and said he never really had to study until medical school- if that means anything). 3. There are many, many options outside of being an MD that allows you to still work in healthcare- I would be one. If you like business, or you like the idea of healthcare, but aren’t sure if you’re “provider” material, then check out some additional avenues. You may, like me, find that administration is a wonderful balance of helping people, and still being ensconced in the healthcare field. 4. Having worked with physicians, residents, med students, and being married to a physician, I can tell you- if you’re questioning it- even a little- keep questioning. Medicine is a huge committment financially, academically, and emotionally. It doesn’t stop with medical school, it continues into residency training, fellowship training (if you choose), and then a litany of continuing education requirements that last the entirety of your career. For most of the physicians I know, and the one I live with, it’s a balanced life, but it does occupy A LOT of your life- it’s not a 9-5, and it’s not something you just leave at your desk when your day is over.
Finally you are totally allowed to change your mind. Maybe continue in business, but take some science classes too- see how you do. If you end up getting a degree in business, and start working and realize that you really did miss the boat in medicine, there’s no reason why you can’t take the MCAT and go to medical school (so long as you’ve done the required undergrad classes). I know several physicians that had other careers first and went to medical school later in life. Lots and lots of options. Good luck to you!