- 5 years ago
Im new here, although I have been stalking this site for about a month now haha. Just wanted to say a quick hi and possibly vent some frustrations.
Now where to start..well I guess I will start with a little about me. Im 23 and have been with my bf for a little over 3 years now. We have a beautiful 2 year old daughter and he is a wonderful father to her and a wonderful step-father to my 5 year old son. My bf and I have been talkin about marriage for a while now but we have always had to put the thought on the back burner..until recently.
Here is where my frustration comes into play (and my reason for joining this site!) About a month ago he had started asking me questions about engagements and engagement rings, such as how long engagements last and styles of rings. I tried not to think too much into it and just answered his questions. I had to show him pictures online about the styles of rings and then he started commenting on ones he liked and asked what ones I like.
Then he didnt say anything more about it for a week. Randomly one day he asked me if I would wear a ring all the time or just sometimes if I got one. Again, I tried not to think too much into it and just answered his question. This kind of stuff happened for about 2 and a half weeks. Then I decided to make him like a little scrapbook of engagement/wedding stuff that I like with some info about rings and my ring size..stupid me cuz then he stopped talking about it all!
In the past week he has started talking about engagement and wedding stuff again!! He has been looking at wedding dresses online! I saw this youtube video of an over the top engagement and showed it to him just because it was so crazy. Then he said that he couldnt do that for me and wouldnt know how to, so I told him that I didnt want anything like that anyway. Hes been saying things like “maybe you are marriage material after all.” But on the other hand he says ” maybe I will wait til I get my bonus from work before I buy anything” (which doesnt come until Christmas) and says this with a teasing smirk.
Lately he has been wayyy more affectionate and lovey dovey..its almost too cheesy. All he does is tell me how much he loves me and stares at me all the time. My 24th birthday is tomorrow and we have a date night coming this Saturday (my mom randomly said she would babysit for us…she NEVER does this without me asking first).
I have been talking to my mom about everything he is doing/saying and she just laughs at me…but is CONVINCED something is going to happen on our date night.
I have a feeling that something is going to happen possibly soon but I am trying, so very hard, to not get my hopes up.
Oh I forgot some additional notes. He almost had a mini freak out when he thougt I saw him enter his password for his online banking. When his friends call him he akways seems annoyed with them and has been spending a lot less time with them. He has been super helpful with everything and has started buying me little treats that I like…basically behaving like he did when we first started dating.
Sorry this is such a long post..felt good to get it all out though!! I have been driving myself crazy thinking about it all! Just got to try not to over think things and not get my hopes up.
So thats my story 🙂