- 7 years ago
- Wedding: August 2014
SO FH and I are having a lovely dinner. I bing up how I found out the rates for personal loans at one of the local banks and we figured what payments would be.. (We may need to take out a loan to pay for the wedding as a last resort). Mind yyou, I am that girl who has dreamed of her wedding since I was 3 years old and played bride dress up at 5.
We have been trying to figure out HOW to save for the wedding AND a place to live (he refuses to rent so we need to save for a down payment on a house) Please don’t tell me I’m stupid for wanting to have a wedding when we should put that $ towardsa house.
So PMSing n all out in public at dinner he goes “You know, one option is to NOT have a wedding.” .. WHAT!!!??? We’ve been together EIGHT years and ALL I ever talk about is the dress, the ceremoney, the reception, who will be there what we will eat, what we will drink, our signature drink, etc. This is my LIFE’S dream! So, I’m now crying in front of strangers uncontrollably and tryinnnnng to catch my breath cause it was like a punch in the stomach. So he says he doesnt understand why everything is a big deal and why I have to cry over it. I just can’t believe he doesn’t understand my reaction to that! SO I was pretty much devestated and wouldn’t talk to him. Now we are talking about just not having such a bi wedding.. but I don’t need a big one in the first place. I just want the people I love to be there and dance, eat and drink with us and I AM willing to set aside funds for that memory I will cherish forever. I’m so upset. I am NOT someone who can just go to city hall and be done with it. I want the whole celebration and I feel I deserve it!
Sorry for the rant or if anyone has the wrong idea of me but I’m just so upset now :*(