- 5 years ago
- Wedding: October 2018
Regular Bee gone anon..
Here it is ladies..
I am 25. He is 40. He looks way younger and acts like to too. We met 2 years ago. He was moving to another state for a job and if I ever wanted to see him I had to go with. So I did.
He was married for 15 years and has 4 kids from that. I met them, but never saw them considering we were in another state. Our relationship was awesome.
Then comes time to move back to our home state. SO excited. We got a house and what not and all of a sudden there are 3 kids (12,10 and 6) here part time. They dont clean up after themselves ,etc. I cook, clean, laundry, shop and do everything for him and his kids. I do not want to be a step mother.Oh, I havent worked since I met him..
We got a surprise a while back and now have a 4 month old baby. I see it as my baby. My world.
SO will pick on me. He is a washed up MMA fighter. He will thawk me in the head, tackle me, leg lock me, arm bar me, and I DO NOT LIKE IT. I ask repeadetly to please not play like that with me. Still continues, I might be crazy but I look at it as a form of abuse. Like he does it because he knows I do not like it and it sometimes hurts me. He plays WAY too hard. Which he has admitted. Hasnt fixed.
He has had 7 broken noses so he is always hocking loogies and spitting. GROSS! seriously non stop.
I am not attracted to him. Sex is gross. He gets upset because I never initiate sex. He says he always has to. Well I have NO DESIRE to have sex with him. eewww.
We fight like crazy when the kids are here. He dresses like a scrub. He says I am all image and no content which is far from the truth. He even told his kids I have mental problems. They love me. Call me their step mom.. EEEKK!
I have $500 to my name in a secret account that he doesnt know about. My mom and I started that and every so often I add to it. I used to have the password for online banking but every time we fight he changes it and hasnt given me a the new one yet. Usually he does the next day. Not this time tho.
I am basically unhappy. I am scared to start all over form scratch. My mother who lives 2 hours away says my child and I are welcome there with open arms and are free to stay as long as it takes, I love the fact that while here, I can be a stay at home mom.. If I leave, that means day care and a job. Which I am fine with, just sad about.
We tried counselig, but we kinda quit going.
He gets mad about the littlest things. Like I get up early with the baby. IF i dont come cuddle at like 8:30 Im the worst. I am supposed to do this almost ever day. I dont. He likes to be touched. If he sits on the couch and sits forward, seriously that is his cue for me to start rubbing his back. That is every fricken time!!! I could go months with out being touched or having sex. We dont kiss. He complains about that. He knows we have been having troubles and he thinks he should create a contract. I move into our baby’s room and take care of our child and the house, cook for his kids, do their laundry, basically do what I am doing now and he will pay me. I DO NOT THINK SO!
I wanna leave. Like now. But I feel I really need to stock some more money away so I can at least survive on my own for awhile. I know my mom will help with everything but she already pays my car payment and insurance. He says once his salaray is increased (supposibly this month, by 50%) he is gonna pay my car off and everything my mom has payed. Its almost payed off by my mom. We just wanna give her the $10,000 I payed for it.
I could go on and on but MR.Crabby is up and I have a baby to go love on!
I guess what I am saying is what do I do?!
He lies to the court about his current income so he doesnt have to pay a ton in child support since they are here 50% of the time. He says he will lie his ass off so I dont get shit. Only enough for our baby. Which is fine, but shit.. He will try to get full custody of my baby. The police say ya right. The baby is mine.. I can take him where ever. HA the first night we were home he threatened to take full custody of our baby. Did I mention he has a drinking problem?
Okay.. I really need to go. Maybe more later. I could go on all day.. 🙁