- 7 years ago
- Wedding: September 2013
Thanks to everyone for all the hugs and uplifting comments. I tried to perk up when I got home and really think about what you all said yesterday. I made us dinner last night and tried to be cheerful, but of course, my bf new something was up. He snuck out while I was showering and went to the store and came back with two bags full of junk to make sundaes with (he knows how to cheer me up).
I didn’t cry the whole night, largely thanks to you guys, and we spent a half hour in bed talking about all the best times we’ve had together before drifting into sleep. All in all, it was a great night.
You guys are totally right. We are practically engaged, and I shouldn’t get upset because it hasn’t “officially” happened yet. I’m more upset that I feel like our lives and future together is on hold due to no fault of our own. We keep trying to move forward towards our goals, but for whatever reason, absolutely everything is in limbo right now: our jobs, our home, his schooling…and now our engagement.
I hear you all when you say that we’re engaged because we’ve already made the commitment to eachother, and I get that. I just really want to celebrate our relationship and move on to the next step. Could you imagine one of your friends coming over and saying “OMG, I’m engaged!” and you ask to see the ring and she tells you she doesn’t have one, and then you ask how he proposed…and she tells you he didn’t. You’d think that she was a nut-job!
I’m definitely doing better, I’m just not 100% ok with it just yet. Mostly, I just wanna say: Thanks for all the honey, bees!