- 8 years ago
I don’t really want to get into all the specifics, but I also just really need to vent. Hope you guys don’t mind. I’ve never had so many different feelings all at once. In the last few hours, I’ve been so angry/hurt, but have also felt so loved at the same time. Very weird!
I started off the morning in kind of a funk, because my SO finally got some time off work later this week [we usually work totally opposite shifts], and I was supposed to be off those same days. Then I found out I have to work the exact days he’s off. Wasn’t too pleased about that. We live together, but barely see each other.
Then, I had some family drama I wasn’t expecting suddenly pop up out of nowhere today.
I found out at work, and actually almost started crying right then and there when I made the discovery. Let’s just say there was an account still under my name when it shouldn’t have been, and I was told it was taken out of my name 2 years ago. Oh, and did I mention that apparently money is owing on said account? A lot of money.
Anyway, so after work, I go meet my SO at his work. He gets in the car, and I was already bawling by the time he got there. I tell him, and right away, he gets all protective and comes to the rescue. Just saying “it’s okay babe, we’ll get it taken care of and everything will be fine”… then he says he’ll handle it. And what do I mean by handle it? I mean he just up and said he’s going to shell out almost $1000 to take care of this because I can’t afford it right now. Just like that. Because we’re in this together and he’s not going to let anything ruin our life together.
I know it’s hard because you guys don’t know the whole story, but… I’m just so hurt by what’s happened. I just feel… so betrayed. And you know what’s really sad? The first thing I thought when my amazing man said he’d take care of this, is “damnit now this means getting engaged is even further away now” and how I wished that money could be going towards a ring/wedding/our future, as opposed to this bullshit. I cried hard, for what’s going on… but even moreso that what’s happened is affecting us and our future. And I am so freakin’ angry that a person I love so much would do that to us. Seriously.
I’ve looked into everything and it will all get sorted, plus it’s not affecting my financial future as badly as I thought it was , so I’m breathing a little easier now. I think the hardest part is just feeling so betrayed and shocked that it’s happened at all.
Thanks for reading you guys. I’m trying not to focus on the fact that this event may push things back for us, but it’s hard.
On a happy note though, the way my SO reacted and treated me all evening just showed me over and over again just how much he truly loves me. I’m so thankful for having such a great guy.
I just want to marry him already! 🙂